i just want a secret life

i’ve never wanted to get my period more than rn

i haven’t been on here in a while and i just read through my posts on my side blog and oh my god i used to be so sad. it’s so crazy how much my life has changed in the last couple of months. i was so miserable at my old job and i hated the major i was pursuing. i’m so much happier at my new job, like i genuinely look forward to going into work and i like everyone i work with. i don’t feel like i have to prove myself to them. i quit my old major and i’m so happy that i did. if i continued, i swear i would’ve ended up k*lling myself. my mental health has never been lower, like i was actually so scared that i’d do something stupid but i saw no way out. i finally have the motivation to try school again but for something i’m actually interested in and see a future in. my coworkers are all so supportive of me and not judging me whatsoever. i haven’t felt that sad in such a long time. i still have some days where i feel a little sad and unmotivated but it’s so rare compared to how often i felt that way before. i guess this is my way of saying to anyone who’s reading this and to anyone who is struggling, please keep going. it’s so cheesy and everyone says that, but i promise it does get better. i thought i’d be sad for the rest of my life but i’m not. i’m so happy. i still have some things in my life that i’m trying to change that i know will make me happier but i think overall i’m content with where i’m at.

kinda salty cuz ppl i used to hang out with are at a place they showed me cuz they thought i’d like it and now they’re there without me