poetry

i hear you. but we can't keep living like this.

i know you're in pain. i know you're in need.

but this won't get you what you want. honestly, you'll never get what you want. at least not in the same way you want it.

we need to find new ways. we need to find a way out of this hell.

and believe me, it will be so much greater than everything you ever wanted.

I have to be like everyone else

or else it won't work

I don't want to be like everyone else

You broke me Now I have to fix myself Because you never fixed yourself And didn't care about the consequences About the effect it has on me

I shattered. I broke down. I lost.

You don't see me You never will

you showed me what love is not

you showed me what friends are not

you showed me what safety is not

you showed me what trust is not

you could learn so much from me now

but that's the wrong way

It was a goddamn lie

I don’t know how to get over you

I thought I do

But again I’m here

Sobbing

I’m so pathetic

Finding everyday the smallest things that remind me of us

Knowing it doesn’t matter to you

Knowing you’re doing the smallest things with her now

With her

With her

Doesn't want me anymore

That's the prove for me

I'm not good enough

each day one more bite

soon there won't be anything left of me

except loneliness

it consumes me

it controls me