Speaking English

I wanted to look back at my old blog posts from 800 years ago, and honestly as soon as I logged in I realized this is exactly what I'm in the mood for right now. I decided to finally stop giving Facebook my engagement currency, after like a 15 year addiction. I've quit before and then fell off the wagon, so we'll see.

But I'm pissed and hopefully fully done with "Meta." I only ever stayed on there to stay in touch with people, but most people have left anyway and also I'm so pissed that they were hunky dory with destroying civliization for profit (and I'm starting to conspiratorize about the idea that they did it on purpose all along for our white supremacist overlords to help their takeover), but now all of a sudden they're "super responsible" and preventing controversy (ie shutting down dissent) and I was only still on there at this point on the slim off chance that if I posted anti-Trump and awareness things nonstop that it might make some kind of difference, since I didn't feel like there was much I could do and I NEEDED to do something and not just sit around.

Make fun of me all you want with the internet talking points we've all memorized, in reality, I still think you miss 100% of the shots you don't take and I'll never regret trying.

Either way, I'm finally completely done with Facebook. But also, for the first time in my life, I have a relationship that might actually be going somewhere. How poignant that I got addicted to Facebook because the first person I ever fell in love with was on there (I'm always a troglodyte with new technologies and resisted FB, smartphones and even texting when it first came out) and now I'm leaving, partially because I know I'll be okay. I know I'll have a life, someone to love and spend time with, and someone to really experience things with- unlike the last 15 years where I was miserable and alone and needed to internet to just feel like I was talking to someone- even though most of the time you're not. You're announcing things, and that's different.

Why then am I on tumblr? Well because I'm still kind of lonely. And also I talk A LOT and my boyfriend doesn't want to hear all that. So you guys get to!!

Plus everything is different. I feel like that'll have to go into several chapters of posts to catch up on all the things that are different. But basically, I figured a lot of my shit out. Suffering, wondering, questioning- I'm still doing all that. But now I have a ton of meds, supplements, diagnoses (pretty much pick a card, any card), coping techniques that really don't work, and like 1000 leads for my now obsessive research into my own health (and DNA now!!).

I wasn't even that into Ted Lasso. Also, I'm on the mobile app and not that savvy so I just embiggened the text and have no idea how to end ensmallen it.