Welcome to things and stuff

thanks @discobeatdown for the amazing edits

tbh they did like 99% of the work

I named the file for this image “ZENNERS”, so there you go.

I love playing snipers, and when a sniper can heal their teammates, absolutely love it. 

im tired but i cant slepe

Video games stress me out a ton, it is pretty unfortunate and it used to get to the point where it triggered my anger problem. Today, my anger has rarely come up, I still get a little irritated at things, but can shrug them off pretty quickly, and now I play to have fun, even in a competitive setting. I see losses as a learning experience on how I can improve my own play, and even though I do lose things in competitive, such as rank, I am not as sad or upset as I would have been a few years ago. So even if I do lose in a competitive setting, I’m still there to have fun because it’s a fuckin’ video game, they’re meant to be played for fun. The unfortunate part is that I do meet quite a lot of people who see it differently, and I’m not saying my way of dealing with these things is the MOST AMAZING WAY, but it does make me sad to see people who will throw a fit, act like children when things don’t go their way, especially in certain arcade modes in Overwatch, people view losses as a personal defeat, like people will view them as a lesser person because their stats are less than average, while yeah, a few people will poke fun at you for having shitty stats, it doesn’t change a fuckin’ thing in your personal life, Satan isn’t gonna take you to hell just because you did badly in a few games. People in team games are also a very interesting point in this, as if someone loses, and they immediately blame their teammates, because they’re obviously the “perfect” ones on the team. Truth is, no one is the supreme video game player, if that was the case, they would be carrying the team without a problem. What I’m getting at is that nobody seems to reflect on themselves after a game, and this has been said before by many others before me, but people should learn to take steps in improving themselves, take a look back on what they’ve possibly done wrong and look for a way to do that differently. No one is gonna listen to you when you’re shouting nonsense at them like “You’re so fucking terrible, uninstall, you’re adopted” or some shit, they’re gonna assume you’re bat shit insane, and no one listens to a dude screaming at the top of his lungs “Shoving a cucumber into my asshole made me see the light” Its just not gonna work. And this was my short rant on the mindset many people seem to have when it comes to playing video games. And this is not gonna fix anything, as I know many people will not see this, a perfect world does not exist, as a perfect gamer doesn’t. 

Decided to make myself something, but you know, why not post it.

Widowmaker is my favorite, too bad everyone will give you shit for playing her.

ur dum

I really like Genji’s design, forgive me

Got Genji Play of the Game recently, so I felt the need.

Super early morning Source Filmmaker

My return to Source Filmmaker

Currently unable to sleep, marking the possible millionth time I have been unable to sleep due to things on my mind, I realize I tend to talk about either stupid shit or serious shit here, but I guess it is just whatever is on my mind at the time of writing. So the reason I am unable to sleep is because I do have a ton of things on my mind, have had them for a while, and while I could type them all down onto this and make a long list of this problem, and that problem, I’m just gonna ask the last thing I most recently thought of. Who do I go to talk to when the people I would normally talk to are unavailable because I’m scared to talk to them? Scared I might weird them out with my unorthodox way of thinking, scared of being that emotional weight holding them down, but also others I’m not scared of, maybe they’re the reason you’re feeling like shit right now, maybe you haven’t talked to them in a while and it would be kind of awkward to open up with “Hi, currently in a shithole of emotions, how are you?”. Others reasons include being afraid of breaking the image of who I am to others, in one of my friend groups I’m seen as the emotionally stable one, the always happy one, the one who finds joy in everything in life, the one who acts like a fucking weirdo to cheer everyone up in their darkest of times. The one who does not have problems, when in reality I’m about as human as it gets. I’m not just afraid of breaking this image because I want to be seen as the big man of the group, but I want to be the one to help others by being the one without issues, by talking with them and acting like I have my life together. Most of the time I brush away these feelings and act like a fucking weirdo in order to cheer up my friends because I hate seeing my closest friends in a similar state that I am currently in. On an unrelated note I realize that the things I say sound like one of those Facebook images with a sad quote about being depressed or some shit, and I hate being that kind of person who would type in “OMFG SAAAAME” on those said pictures. I don’t think my problems are unique in any way, I know there are a lot who go through things like this, but again, Fucke is about what I’m thinking in the moment, and at this moment I am lonely. Also Trump is president now.

So I feel like I didn’t say all that I felt I should say, either I became lazy or I just didn’t care enough, maybe a mix of both? Anyways, I feel as if a lot of people use Tumblr as a safe place, or use the internet as a safe place in general, and will show their life stories and their opinions on the internet and expect that people will respect their opinion. The internet connects a vast amount of different people with differing opinions. Of course there are gonna be people who will disagree with you. 

Another Fucke so soon, I know I don’t have an amazing following on Tumblr, nor do I expect one, but I do feel the need to express my opinion on opinions... So I have come to respect peoples opinions, even if I do not agree with them on it, as it is theirs. And if someone decides to diss my opinion I just point and laugh and ignore them, which I feel is a strong ability to have on the internet, and I’m not praising myself, but I do feel like a lot of people, especially on this site, take it REALLY personally when their opinion is attacked, even when it is just an anonymous user. Now I have found myself to fuck with these kinds of people because I find it fun, I have no real reason for doing it, just that its fun. Even in games like Overwatch, if someone calls me bad I usually respond with something a 10 year old would say like “ur trash” because I don’t care, and if they respond to it then it’ll be even more fun for me to continue being a cancerous tumor in that game. and I will treat this site the same. Again I do not expect to make a huge following on this site, nor do I care but if I do and I end up getting hate which will inevitably happen as with all who get “big”, but if I get hate, it’ll be my own personal entertainment.