Memoirs of A Small Allie Cat

I’m going to make a new blog and either set this one up to auto forward, or just drop the new link and if anyone ever comes here, they’ll know where to go.

New discord username:

With every kick and punch you make when you hear me speak, or sing. I love you more and more.

The fact I’m going to be a mom.

I’m trying to get back into writing again. I think so many things, but end up forgetting them after. So this is easier to just express even in blips so I don’t forget.

Tonight I sat outside after a hard day of work in the rocking chair, listening to lo-fi, in leggings and a hoodie. The breeze was so nice, I didn’t want to leave. That slightly cool chill, just gently brushing against your skin. But you have your body heat to combat it, so you aren’t cold.

I’ve been angry lately, and more forgetful. Sometimes I don’t think my anti depressants are working. For awhile I felt less angry, and I’ve felt like the anxious walls I had are coming down. I’ve also been wanting to canoodle with my husband. But I think I can blame the mini honeymoon we had on that.

In the hours leading up to the big day. My insides were in knots. I was an absolute wreck. Friday flew by so quickly. I barely ate dinner even after eating nothing the entire day. I felt sick to my stomach. The next morning was no better. I had a slice of French toast, two pieces of bacon, a few bites of home fries and like half of a sausage patty. I just couldn’t eat. My nerves were all over the place. The quirks just rolled in after that.

I forgot the seating chart at home, and my dad’s boutonnière. I somehow ended up with Austin’s cousins phone and she was lost for over an hour with the sharpies for our guest book so no one could sign. Cheyenne’s heel broke, so she had to rip the other one off so she had shoes. Then I get to the alter and forget what his grandfather is asking me to repeat right after he says it 😭 then wedding kiss, then walking. When we go to cut the cake, the knife breaks off in it 🥲 and I died laughing. I had leaves gravitating to my train a good portion of the time. Needless to say, it was an eventful experience.