The weight of Guy against him, the steady presence of muscle and bone that refuses to give way under his rather forceful hug, leaves a surge of contentment sweeping through the Irishman's chest, as if instinct itself is letting out a sigh of relief, saying he can finally relax. The other man is home, safe ... with him. He forgets the crowd for a moment, forgets the weeks that have felt more like a pitched battle than living, and presses his face against the cool cotton of the other man's shirt. There's the smell of rum and beer, of spilled drink upon the floor that leaves behind a lingering sweet and stale stickiness, of smoke and cloying perfume from the women who had crowded the front of the stage .. but underneath it all... is him.
Killian grins all the wider at the knowledge he managed to coax a laugh (his favorite bloody sound), and steps back the slightest bit, fingers finding and interlacing with his boyfriend's own. He can feel those aforementioned women watching them, gazes like claws digging into the back of shoulder blades, no doubt sizing up both men ... and he fight the urge to turn around and tell them to fuck off. Guy is all that matters, all that exists in this moment .. Guy is home.
There's that word again - home - short and simple but full of so much weight, except this time it's falling between them flavored with the rumbled baritone of the other man's voice, leaving blue eyes blinking in the space left behind. It would be weird to tackle him to the floor, yeah? Fingers of one hand curl into sensitive palms while the others squeeze all the tighter around the ones in their grip, head shaking against the halting way that Guy's words stumble across his tongue.
I wondered if maybe you would be open to the notion of having me around a little longer this time?
For a single, solitary moment the Irishman wonders if he's dreamt this all up, wonders if this is one of those torturous tricks of his own mind that will leave him awash in a flat that is decidedly far too empty. He thinks about his bed, small and scrounged up from a cheap local sale, that now feels like an endless expanse of nothing without Guy pressed up against him ... thinks about the four walls that exist like a tomb, housing the bits of their relationship that serve as a memorial to the memory of two men in love, waiting impatiently for the other half to light up it's space once again. Lips twitch at the corners, giving way to a grin that Killian is almost certain will shatter the bones of his jaw, and he wonders if Guy can taste his answer as rum-flavored lips seek out the ones so familiar. His heart beats a steady thrum, thumping hard and loud against the cage of his ribs as if returning the call of the one who truly owns it. The words, when they come, are quiet things .. barely audible over the lingering noise of the pub and flavored with that damn smile that refuses to leave.
"Welcome home, love. If I had my way .. you'd never bloody leave."
The impact is immediate, visceral, and Killian feels a tangle of fear somewhere in his middle accompany the sudden knot of fear that blocks his throat, refusing to be swallowed down. Bloody fucking hell. He wants to apologize, wants to shrug his shoulders in some casual aye well, I didn't mean it way to head off any discontent he's planted.. but his tongue stubbornly clings to the roof of his mouth, dry as cotton, refusing to let any such thing pass over it.
"Let's just ..." Forget-me-not blues flash with a hint of frustrated anger, with a bitter regret about his ability to ruin the most goddamned best thing that's ever happened to him. Their set isn't fully over, the crowd is owed another half an hour of songs if the notice outside the pub door is any indication, but the Irishman doesn't care .. he wants nothing more than to be out of this place, cramped and stifling as it suddenly is. "Let's just go, yeah? Home or a walk or .. whatever. We can talk."