Hi! It's pinkandscary, previously known as @/medically-fucked-jirai (I really liked that name, I'm sad I can't use it anymore).
I'm still primarily on Mastodon (where I use the same name as here), because I'm terrified of getting termed again, but I want to start using Tumblr again.
This is a Jirai vent blog, so please proceed with caution. Content warning for $/H and general mental instability. Please block instead of reporting.
Suspected (by medical professionals): C-PTSD, DID/OSDD-1, ADHD, Delayed Gastric Emptying
User Suspects: AvPD (likely), ARFID (likely), ME/CFS (possibly), HNPP (I have the symptoms but can't afford the genetic test), FND (maybe)
We are a system. You may use they/them to collectively refer to us, but it doesn't really matter. Here's everyone who may use the blog.
Ash: Host of the system and primary user of this blog. Really likes My Chemical Romance. (They/He)
Charlie: Primary protector, and probably the oldest out of all of us. Can't draw for shit (which is only significant bc the rest of us can). Any pronouns.
Kae: Little and trauma holder. Won't interact with anyone and just uses this to vent. (They/She/He)
Rin: Was the one who created the original blog. Doesn't use this very much, but is the one who enjoys Girly Kei fashion the most. (It/She)
En: Will post about wanting to die. Probably won't indicate that it's him. (He/She)
If there is a post where no one is tagged, either we're blendy, or it's not relevant.
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it’s always a think piece about “why aren’t young people drinking” “why aren’t young people traveling” “why aren’t young people buying houses” “why aren’t young people optimistic for the future” w these elaborate hypothetical reasons
meanwhile the actual answer never changes: we broke, babes (and we live in a capitalistic corporate hellscape sucking the life out of us and the planet)
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with all the hate going on, it’s a great time to spread positivity to other jirai blogs! send nice comments, asks, etc! i know im gonna be anoning for some people in a minute and sending kindness. stay safe, everyone!
I would do this if I wasn't horribly socially anxious. I might try to do this anyway. If you're more socially confident than me (the bar is in hell tbh), try sending some love!
there are like five rules to life and those rules are
1. eat 3 meals a day & keep a snack on u
2. always have a non alcoholic drink with you
3. never trust anything you think about your life after 8-9pm, if you’re getting close to your sleep time but not at it yet, or if you’ve been awake for a while
4. do a little something for urself every day
5. interact with a Beast at least once a day (human, feline, canine, lizard, bird, etc)
and the secret 6th rule:
6. if you can’t do all of those rules, just do the ones you can
Autistic social anxiety is not "social anxiety" in the typical sense. An anxiety disorder is defined as an "irrational fear". So for example, imagine someone who is afraid to speak in case everyone looks at them and goes "what the heck are you saying you wierdo." If that person is neurotypical, then the chances are that they're very unlikely to get that response. Therefore their fears are irrational, and that is true "social anxiety". If you put an autistic person in that scenario, on the other hand, then probably the reason they're afraid of that response is because they've received it many times before. They're fear is based on repeated past experiences, therefore it is not irrational and not the simply an anxiety disorder. That's why people giving the classic social anxiety responses to autistic people is so unhelpful. "Just go out there and talk to people, it'll be fine," or "keep pushing yourself out of your comfort zone and you'll get more confident," don't work if the problem is real and not just in your head.
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