PINK MATTER

“The fact is that five years ago I was, as near as possible, a different person to what I am tonight. I, as I am now, didn’t exist at all. Will the same thing happen in the next five years? I hope so.”

you are the most permanent thing in your life. always. that won’t change. ever. so put you first. prioritize you. choose you. you, you, you. your needs, your wants, your dreams, your feelings, your happiness, your peace. never sacrifice any of that, and do not spend your entire life treating people who might be temporary better than you treat yourself.

“No one knows for certain how much impact they have on the lives of other peoples. Oftentimes, we have no clue.”

“i wish i could tell you how much i really care about you and how much you matter to me. i wish i could find the answers as to what happened between us and why we couldn’t be. i wish i could look inside your heart to see what you really think about me and if any part of you wants me back, but life is too complicated to make all that come true. it’s too complicated for us to happen.”

phi·lo·pho·bi·a

there’s not a day that goes by where i don’t think of you. you are someone that’s changed how i view the world, in all of its little details. i see parts of you everywhere. i see you in every bus stop, every brown haired boy, and every name that contains the same letters as yours... my mind can’t help but race with the thoughts of you each time i notice them. you make up my feelings now. i notice that now, i can’t fall in love without falling for you first. it’s always you, and even when it isn’t, i always come back to you.

“Call me and tell me you miss me. Call me and tell me I’m on your mind as much as you are on mine.”

“Because you don’t know his answer, you don’t know what he’s thinking, you’ll never know. You’ll never know if he was just as insecure as you were, you’ll never know if he was ever ready for anybody, you’ll never know if he was just as hard on himself as you were on yourself, you’ll never know if he wore a mask the whole time until he even forgot who he was anymore.”

“I love the way you love with all your heart. You’ve been hurt so many times, yet you still to present your newly-healed heart exposed and vulnerable each time. The world will tell you it’s stupid and naive, but it makes you stronger and I love you for it.”