I never meant to make it such a mess
I never thought that it would go this far
So I just stand here sorry
Searching for something to say
Something to say
Words fail, words fail
Thereās nothing I can say
I guess I thought I could be part of this
I never had this kind of thing before
I never had that perfect girl
Who somehow could see the good part of me
I never had the dad who stuck it out
No corny jokes or baseball gloves
No mom who just was there
āCause mom was all that she had to be
Thatās not a worthy explanation
I know there is none
Nothing can make sense of all these things Iāve done
Words fail, words fail
Thereās nothing I can say
Except sometimes, you see everything you wanted
And sometimes, you see everything you wish you had
And itās right there, right there, right there
In front of you
And you want to believe itās true
So you⦠make it true
And you think maybe everybody wants it
And needs it⦠a little bit⦠too
This was just a sad invention
It wasnāt real, I know
But we were happy
I guess I couldnāt let that go
I guess I couldnāt give that up
I guess I wanted to believe
'Cause if I just believe
Then I donāt have to see whatās really there
No, Iād rather pretend Iām something better than
These broken parts
Pretend Iām something other than
This mess that I am
'Cause then I donāt have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it
No, no one can really see
'Cause Iāve learned to slam on the brake
Before I even turn the key
Before I make the mistake
Before I lead with the worst of me
I never let them see the worst of me
'Cause what if everyone saw?
What if everyone knew?
Would they like what they saw?
Or would they hate it too?
Will I just keep on running away from whatās true?
All I ever do is run
So how do I step in
Step into the sun?
Step into the sun