Blitzo's Drug Trip Psychological Analisis (Unfinished)
This is an unfinished draft post I made about Blitz's drug trip, as I lost motivation to continue writing it. Keep in mind that this is just a rough draft, so everything might not be perfect. <3
I think Moxxie being very haughty here is reminiscent of how Blitz thinks that Moxxie is more competent than him. He feels like the only reason Moxxie is bad at his job is because of him. He also believes that Moxxie (and Mille) is much better off without him. Moxxie here uses complex language that Blitz doesn’t understand (Which, apparently he does on a subconscious level, because everything Moxxie is saying here comes directly from Blitz’s own mind).
Then we pan out to there being three mud demons, one pink, one orange, and one gray
Eventually, each of these mud demons take the shape of another helluva boss character. Pink being Verosica, orange being Striker and gray being Vizzaroli. Each of these demons taking the form of a character/color represent one of Blitz’s fears and insecurities. The pink one representing his fear of intimacy, hence why Verosica is transforms into this demon. The orange demon represents his fear of being alone, with Striker being this one. Lastly, the gray one represents the fear of his past in the circus (or just his past in general), Vizzaroli being the perfect one to represent.
Then, Moxxie’s all like, “You’re useless without me and Mille, you drag us along because you can’t do it on your own'' (paraphrase) and then Blitz is all like “Nuh-uh” and Moxxie’s like “Uh-huh”. Then apparently Blitz’s subconscious had enough of the back and forth, because the orange mud demon grabs Blitz by the neck, and shoves him on the ground.
The mud demon transforms into Striker, and Striker says “because you don’t wanna do it alone Blitzo”. Now it’s a little strange how Striker calls Blitz “Blitzo” when they met way after Blitz changed his name. Striker shouldn’t even know Blitz even used to be called Blitzo (unless his name got around during his performance days) . Well, obviously this completely takes place in Blitz’s subconscious and it’s not the real Striker talking to him, But the fact that dream Striker calls him Blitzo rather than just Blitz is pretty telling. This tells us the way Blitz sees himself, He still sees himself as that little clown who is lost and alone (this is represented in the outfit he’s wearing). “Blitz” is his current I.M.P assassin self, but “Blitzo” was his past clown self. Blitz cut the “O” off the end of his name entirely, just to distance himself from his past, but clearly it’s not working because he still sees himself the same way.
The question could also be asked, why Striker is in Blitz’s hallucination in the first place when they just met for the first time a few episodes ago (unlike the other people in his trip). Well, for starters, what Striker said to Blitz back in episode five really got to him. You can see the look on Blitz’s face in the episode itself, he was really considering Striker’s offer, but not because of the classism issue. Based on what Striker said to Blitz in his hallucination, we can pinpoint the reason why Striker really appeared in Blitz’s trip. Striker said “Because you don’t wanna do it alone”, this is why Blitz was really interested in Striker's advances in episode five. Blitz has an extreme fear of being alone, that’s why he relies on Mille and Moxxie to help carry the I.M.P team (Sure, having co workers is necessary for a business to succeed, but Blitz relies on them an overabundant amount). The power imbalance thing was something to take into consideration, but what was really appealing to Blitzo was the idea of working together with Striker, hence why Striker specifically was the one to bring it up in the hallucination.
Then an eighties cartoon looking Vizzaroli grabs Blitz, he says “You tried the solo act! it didn't work out so well”. There’s not much to this sentence by itself, it's pretty self explanatory. I did find this interesting for one reason though, because put together with what Striker said, the sentence is “You don’t wanna do things alone Blitzo *BECAUSE* you tried the solo act and it didn’t work out so well”. Using this we can assume Blitz’s solo act was one of the main reasons for his fear of being alone. (For those who don’t know, Blitz’s solo act was the main thing fans assumed that drove his life downhill, as there being memorabilia representing that night all over Blitz’s office. None of the fans know what exactly happened that night, but whatever happened was not good, and Blitz developed severe trauma and possibly physical scars due to that night.)
Vizzaroli throws Blitz on the ground, leaving Verosica to berate him. Versoica is different because unlike Striker and Vizzaroli she drops bars. She says “Yet you push everyone away that gets too close until they resent you for being a selfish, shitty, shit fuck”. It’s fitting that Verosica would say that, considering she was his girlfriend at one time, and is one of the people most affected by Blitzo’s intimacy issues. Verosica, like the girlboss she is, calls Blitz out on his shit. For those who don’t know this sentence is referring to Blitzo’s fear of intimacy. Blitz will push people close to him away, before they can push him away first, because he’s afraid of them not loving him. That’s pretty much a basic explanation of it.
Blitzo then escapes from Verosica by running up a nearby staircase. This staircase happens to have Stolas at the top, who says “Are you afraid to love people, Blitzy?”. This is referring to how Blitz is afraid to love people (much like his fear of intimacy) because he’s afraid of them not loving him back. Stolas is the one to say this in the hallucination, because Blitz wants to love Stolas but he thinks Stolas only wants him for sex. Blitz sees himself as unlovable, he figures it’s impossible for someone to love him, so he assumes Stolas only sees him as a plaything and not as a possible lover.
Blitz then tries to climb up the muddy staircase but Stolas’ feathers clean the stairs and allow Blitz to walk up with ease. Blitzo sees this as Stolas allowing him access to the book. Without Stolas allowing him Blitz would have no book, or worse. Stolas being on the top of the staircase represents the power dynamic between Blitz and Stolas. Real Stolas obviously doesn’t see the power imbalance because he isn’t affected by it, but Blitzo sees Stolas as far above him in this relationship. As Stolas could remove his book privileges on the drop of a hat, or even kill him if he wanted to.
As Blitz walks up the staircase shackles are placed on his wrists and ankles, however the mud demons stop attacking Blitzo in the process. This represents how Blitz feels like Stolas is a place he can go to in order to escape his troubles, but he also feels like Stolas is trapping him in the relationship. Blitz feels like he has no other option but to submit to Stolas, but to have sex with him every month. Blitz feels like Stolas holds all the power in the relationship, (When in actuality, Stolas holds societal and hierarchical power over Blitz, but Blitz holds emotional power over Stolas). He also feels like Stolas is the only safe place he can go in his life, to just forget about his problems.
Blitz transforms from his old Vizzaroli clown outfit to his regular I.M.P outfit, all the while, Moxxie is absolutely calling him out. Mans said, “ I believe your subconscious is trying to tell you that you simply cannot fathom proper intimacy, but... also crave it as well. It's rather unfortunate, sir, considering it's often how you treat those who stand by you... such as myself.”, Which, in itself, is a bar. Dream sequence Moxxie is a menace. I don’t really feel the need to explain this sentence, since it's pretty much self explanatory.
Moxxie grabs a feather off the ground, and then becomes absolutely stylish. Which might be weird upon first glance, but after careful inspection it’s not that strange. We saw that in the dream sequence, Stolas’ feathers are magical. The feathers cleaned the stairs, changed Blitz’s outfit, and put Moxxie in a dress. Stolas’s feathers make things better, make them their best selves. Blitz went from being a clown, to being normal Blitz after the feathers touched him. So, when Moxxie went from normal Moxxie to in a dress when the feathers touched him, that’s pretty telling. Blitz thinks Moxxie is comfortable in a dress, Moxxie’s arc is clearly going to be him becoming more comfortable with expressing himself. In Blitz’s dream, Stolas’ feathers make people their best selves, so Blitz thinks Moxxie would be his best self if he were wearing a dress. (We have more evidence of this, in episode four, when Moxxie was crossdressing. he was really getting into it. He seemed more comfortable in that instance. Slay Moxxie)
