watched a storm roll in and break apart. as the clouds started to lighten a rainbow curved across the sky.. and then there was a second one! we were like omfg double rainbow and there were two folks down on the boardwalk below who started hollerin “YOOO A DOUBLE RAINBOW” and we started cheering, the other people out on their balconies at our hotel did the same. the old couple next to us peeled their heads over and asked if we wanted a shot of fireball because we “sounded like party people”

my vice now is drinking oolong tea too late in the day and i’m up at 2 am making sure my boyf is breathing and thinkin thinkin thinkin

this has been the year where i greatly miss drug usage. i still have a stash drawer obvi. for the one time a year i take mdma and go to a show. the once every few years i’ve done mushrooms. i went to mexico last year and got klonopins and xanax because sometimes i like to do them but so occasionally like. once every six months if even that. it’s all fun. whatever. but . i cannot stress how fucking badly i wish i’d be a substance abuser in times like this. like yah the world is collapsing but itswhatever. stupid 27 year old brain is like babe you can’t you have to carry this body until you die like faaahhhhhcckkkk