pheeniqs

Savings goal: 135/500€

Low-key think he never heard about it, and learned it from me and now tells everyone to test them. Yikes. But this is speculation.

The not fun fact about this is that they track who committed the order. And he never does it himself. Nor does he do claims. He always has someone else do it, so our names show up in the files not his.

Basically my boss told me something I had to do about 2 weeks ago. So, I did. (And said sorry a couple of times, cause I truly didn't know that that was part of my responsibility, spoiler: it isn't). I then told him exactly what I did and how I did it. Because that's something I always do, when I do something for the first time. Just quickly ask for feedback. He told me I did a good job. But what I should've done was read the fucking guidelines myself. Cause 🚩🚩🚩major red flags. Well, guess who fucked up the automated ordering system? Me. All me. Cause I did something I was told to do, but wasn't necessary at all. Sick. Expensive mistake. I hate it here.

On that note;

So, this morning I realized something odd. If you follow glitch in the matrix stuff online you've probably heard of item duplication glitches. If not, it's pretty self explanatory. And it's what happened with one of my Stabilo fine liners. I always had two black fine liners. One from a set with multiple colors that I bought back in 2015. And one that I just happened to have. Origin unknown. And I know for a fact that I had two. Because remember how I was talking about decluttering all month? The second one is one thing I considered decluttering, cause I really don't need two. I decided against it, and just told myself to focus on finishing one. Yesterday evening I was doing my monthly finance wrap up. And I noticed that the ink was running out. Finally. Tell me why I woke up to three fine liners. 🙃 As if I somehow manifested an additional one for the one that's running out. I wasn't going to say anything, cause like, whatever.

But what's really throwing me off is something else entirely. Some time ago I bought one of those air fragrance things. The one with the wooden sticks, you know? And at the end of last week/at the beginning of this week I noticed that it's not really giving off a lot of fragrance anymore. So I thought about turning the sticks upside down. Or replacing them. Whatever. I didn't though, because the smell is really strong and I didn't want to get it on my hands at the time. The one thing I took note of was that it was still almost full. Tell me why it's half empty now. Like that's freaking me out dude. How would it still be almost full after 2 months but then go to half empty within days. That just doesn't make any sense.

I was at a museum, and this museum does exist and I've been there once before AND I've been thinking about going again yesterday. So, I am aware that it makes sense for my subconscious to bring it up. Last time I visited I missed an entire exhibition because the layout of the museum just doesn't make any fucking sense. And I do get around train stations easily, so I generally know how to find my way around. In my dream I was again confused. I had seen one part of the exhibition and was unsure how to go from there. When I finally found the next room, I realized I never got a wristband. In this museum there are exhibitions that you need to pay extra for, which is indicated by different colored wristbands. And I got annoyed, because I had issues with getting into the museum and I talked with the guy at the ticket booth for so long that it really pissed me off that he forgot about the wristband. Luckily the security lady was kind enough to let me in after showing her my ticket receipt. But in the room I was promptly stopped by a museum security guy who handed me a scroll of some sorts and said "Please give this to Kai". And I was still so annoyed with the wristband thing, cause obviously shit like this has to happen to me. It always does. I took the scroll before I was like. "Wait a minute. I don't work here? I'm not supposed to deliver anything to anyone." But the guy didn't budge. He basically told me to just deliver this real quick and then I could go back through the museum.

Sidenote: Last time I was there, there were a few paintings that were replaced with small frames saying "Painting rented out to a partner exhibition in... until...". In my dream however, as soon as I entered that part of the museum. There were no paintings at all. There were white walls and all the "paintings" were just drawn on with sharpie?! Starting to wonder if that's why I wasn't supposed to continue just now....

Anyway I go back to figure out whoever this Kai guy is. Thinking there'll just be some guy seeing me with the scroll and just waving me over. Easy. But nah. I make my way all the way back to the entry hall. Look into a few open staff doors until I see the ticket booth guy in an office. I roll my eyes, not this guy again. But I'm so done so I'm like "I'm supposed to deliver this to Kai, but I don't know who that is." "You know who Kai is." he says. And I'm suddenly hit with a heavy heavy feeling. An unbearable weight that's literally like pushing me to the ground. And I get so sad. Unbearable sad. Breaking the dream wall sad. Ticket booth guy comes over from behind his desk to hug me. And I don't let go. I'm holding on for dear life. Fully aware that this is incredibly awkward. I don't know this guy. The last thing I remember is saying some stuff about just wanting to continue my museum visit. Don't remember anything beyond that.

Strange thing is. I had a dream about being in a rebellion against demons with a guy who had ultra healing powers. But we were losing the fight anyways. And that dream went on for way longer. And I had multiple near death experiences. But somehow that's not the dream that stuck with me. It's that weird feeling I got after I was told that I knew who Kai was.