why didn’t i get the maths or science autism???

hey. do you ever think about dan being the first one to say gabe’s name, despite diana centering so much of herself around him? because for diana, it was never just about gabe himself; he was the son she lost, the life she could have had, the mental illness that governed her life, the child she could imagine but not have to care for. he was a symbol for all of that. but for dan, gabe was gabe: his son, not a symbol. he cared about diana, about natalie, about gabe, about his family. so he said gabe’s name because he still recognizes gabe’s identity, even when - to diana - he’s spiraled so far beyond.

the next to normal hyperfixation has lasted a long time. it may be load bearing now.

me, waiting by the correct gate before they announce my train, lining up first, separating from the group to stand by myself where i know the train will stop and will have good seats for me: yes. yes. i am so good at train. i will get the good seat and be So Good At Train. these other people could not hope to be As Good at Train as i am.