PETAL

i have an itch to write.

Im tired of feeling invisible

I feel like im so behind in life. No first kiss and no boyfriend. I feel stupid.

What the freak.

Ja realized what such a pos ive become. Like damn petal. Youre terrible.

I really want a boyfriend. 🫩💔

this is killing me but i lost writing. its so terrible to think about but i guess that is growing up? i also wanna keep working on becoming a psych major and maybe start streaming? i have so many goals and writings not one of them anymore.

the expectations from everyone around me to be this amazing writer is killing me i want to write but—i cant. i have to be physically tied down to my computer to write anything anymore. this physically hurts, because at a point, writings all i had. now its all i DONT want to do. maybe my passion will come back?

the genuine thought if dying alone makes me physically ill.

i feel like im losing all my friends. i dont mean to ghost people i just want everyone to feel special.

changbin just (biased) wrecked me. dammit. not again..

i wanna be pretty so bad.