A little closer to grace

“Yeah we should totally sneak out to the store, like real super spies!” The boy said with a small chuckle. “You can have your milk cold no problemo!”

‘‘ No, not spies, NINJAS! ’’ she exclaimed, ‘‘ninjas are better than spies, they’re even sneakier I think. I don’t actually know, I only think, but I have a big brain and I know lots of things, so i think I’m right. ’’ off on a tangent again, Cecily.

“You know you can’t sneak out this late at night right? I have to report you if I caught ANYONE people this late .. outside…but i’m pretty sure we can come up with a REASONABLE plan or arrangement that works for the both of us ”

Cecily rolls her eyes dramatically at the sound of a voice - BUSTED. reluctantly she drags her feet over to the other. ‘‘ Damn Whittaker, I thought you were cool, never took you for a SNAKE. ’’

A small chuckle escaped his lips as he gestured her to follow him. “I’m sure we can make that happen. We might have to look for the marshmallows but I’m pretty sure we should have them..!”

The little girl scootched to the edge of the bed and jumped down, picking binkie cat up after her. ‘‘ I don’t want hot milk though, I want cold milk with marshmallows. please, if that’s okay. if we don’t have any we might have to sneak out to the store. ’’

After dealing with a feeling of anxiety and unease for at least a year now, Leo thought he was relatively used to that horrible pit in the bottom of his stomach. The tight knots and nausea when absolutely nothing was warranting those feelings. However, once he arrived at Brielle, those feelings felt like they were at least three times more intense. Strangers were everywhere, he didn’t know where anything was, he didn’t know who was known for being kind and who he should be extra cautious around… and it wasn’t like he could ask anyone. The very thought of producing any sound from his mouth made him feel sick to his stomach. It even made him feel dizzy and lightheaded… He was trying to relax, practice breathing exercises and positive self talk or whatever, in the rec room. However, people were coming in and out, they were talking over each other, nurses and guards were watching, and there was absolutely no way Leo could calm himself down with so much going on. He needed someplace quiet… Without anyone around. 

It was in that moment when he remembered a staff member saying something about a music room. Did it have a piano? He thought he remembered them saying something about a piano… and guitars, right? Where was it… fuck why couldn’t he remember where they said it was? The boy got up in a hurry and walked to the hallway, hoping he’d magically walk up to the room. However, the hallway just felt like it was never ending, and all he saw were closed doors that appeared to be offices. Eyes frantically looking from one door to the next, it was clear that he was not paying any attention or noticed the person walking towards him. It was only when he walked directly in their path and collided with them had he realized they were there. The boy stumbled back, eyes wide in shock. He wanted to say sorry.. He wanted to make sure they were alright. God dammit, why couldn’t he say a simple sorry? Instead he just stared at the person for a few seconds in pure panic. After that painfully awkward and stressful encounter, Leo gave up on trying to apologize and started to continue walking down the hall in search for the music room. ( @bhqstarter )

Cecily spent most of her time within her own head, almost totally oblivious to the real world around her, instead constantly preoccupied with the likes of STORM and RED and MARTA. today was no different, she wondered slowly down the corridor talking to Seven, oblivious to the fact that another was walking directly toward her, another person completely oblivious to the world around them. It wasn’t until they collided that Cecily came back to reality, SEVEN THE CAT literally vanishing before her eyes before she could stop herself from toppling backward onto the ground. ‘‘ ouch -’’ she started, sitting upright, before Cecily had a chance to see who she’d bumped into, the stranger was gone.The child jumped to her feet, spinning round and following the stranger down the corridor. ‘‘ ‘scuse me, sir - ’’

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John was having a bit of a down day. Emotionally, that is. He’d been up all night, his mind tormenting him with memories of his family. It was torture and he hadn’t been able to lift himself out of the fog when he’d had to get up and go about his day. He was sitting in some random empty room with the door open, skimming a book but not really taking in the words. His gaze lifted when he heard shuffling at the door and he realised he was no longer alone. “Sorry, did you want the room?”

“Well who has the key, then?” She asked, turning around and frustratingly lays her head against the wall. 

‘‘ the therapists, the nurses, the guards. basically, all the twats that run this place. it’s near impossible to get a copy, but lucky for you, I’m experienced in that field.’’ why the fuck are you talking like a movie villain, Cecily?

she hadn’t even seen the other girl, and her mind was so hazy she hadn’t really taken in her surroundings. her fogged brain finally takes notice of the other and she moves farther down the couch, plopping down. the blonde smiles at the young girl, pulling her knees to her chest and resting her notepad atop. she never really knew what to say, but she’s hoping all her years of babysitting have prepared her for this “ sophia is one of my favorites. how about you, who are your favorite princesses ??”

What kind of shit question had that been?! Of FUCKING course she wasn’t alright. He could have seen it at the way the little girl was looking at him, not even to mention the goddamn fact she had been gone for forever without anyone knowing where..! “Hmmm, I think I can help you with that. Wanna get some sandwiches?” 

Cecily falls silent again, fingers reaching over for Binkie cat, thank god she still had the pink toy, her only REAL comfort. ‘‘ can we have chocolate milk with marshmallows? ’’

she’s looking through all of the paperwork she’s been given. her irritation is definitely mounting, but she keeps trying to remain positive. she wants to go home. her body collides with the couch in the rec room, and she tries to figure out how she can fake being better to just go. “ sorry, did i interrupt something–”

Cecily watches with practically SQUARE eyes as another episode of Sophia the first starts, the theme song blaring loudly. She barely paid attention to anyone else in the room, that was, until someone practically sat on her. ‘‘ NO, just Sophia,’’ she said, eyes still fixed on the screen.