I'm better off dead.

I fucking hate people.

I knew it wouldn't be long until she fell pregnant...

Seriously! Why fucking tell me to bring my stereo if you tell me to turn it down. Its a fucking wedding not a book club. So fucking uptight.

This all makes sense now... why she moved in and got married so quickly. It's because he's a narcissist. Reading up about this and it's already ticking boxes, she's already isolating from her friends. I can imagine him getting angry with not getting his way, I'm worried about her. Hence why she is taking so long to tell me if she can go to my sisters wedding... she keeps asking me the dates again, is she deleting her messages because he checks her phone? Fuck knows, but I don't like him in the slightest and if he is a narcissist then he can fuck off and get help rather than bring her down and believing his bullshit lies. I want her to divorce and get the fuck away from him for good... but I can't say shit to her because she will think I'm being stupid etc. Her sister can see problems happening already, the little things. She's upset as she hardly sees or hears from her. I want her out of his place.. I don't want her to become pregnant because then he will use the child against her to make her stay. I just hope she can come to the wedding, I need to get her to open up to me about this relationship... I want to help her. I miss her so much.

I've lost my best friend. I've lost my attraction towards her. I never see or talk to her anymore. All because of her husband...