TW: ED, SH, SUI

My mother bragging about her disordered eating like it didn't in turn give me an eating disorder.

Shopping is the most theraputic thing ever. I cant kms when I'm too busy playing with my fun new trinkets.

Self inflicted pain >>> Chronic Pain

So tired of talking myself out of a relapse.

Whoever said quitting gets easier is a fucking liar.

Feeling completely numb vs feeling everything at once

Feeling so deeply sucidial that I cant even function properly.

If delusions bad then why make me happy???

Planning for ur future when u dont even want to live <<<

I want to die but don't want to have to kms

Feeling deeply suicidal for no fucking reason rn

Honestly I've had a really good week all things considered but the urge to self-destruct is so high rn.

I love seeing people use tumblr as their personal diaries, like I have no idea who you're talking abt but I will hate them with you. 🤞🏻

Would you rather have 20 minutes of cravings or hours of regret?

Telling myself "just one more cut" like it means anything.

I'm so tired of trying to get better when everyone around me makes it so hard.

I love feeling invalid about my sh because I don't cut as deep as others. :)))