Time for you.

It is without a doubt the simplest time of my life. The day to day life for me has been so tame. Get up in the morning, no fighting it. I just wake up and, toss and turn to my own free will. I do not have to sneak out of bed. Tip toe around my house. No, I just kind of. Get up and look for my cat, get some morning snuggles in. Make coffee and really just. Count my blessings.. I know it might sound like some wooo-haa but it is really. What gets me going. I thought I'd just start journaling first thing in the morning. So. Here we are. It's raining hard in the valley for us. I have been waiting for this rain for so long and now that it's finally here. I look forward to the bloom that comes after all this downpour.

well, for my own personal 'perfect day' it includes just. waking up when I want to. making my own coffee and then, just being able to observe life out of my patio. for the better part of it. having the choice between oh do I want to thrift, do I need to arrange my laundry, a walk sounds nice. all the beautiful things life has to offer. very simple things. but just doing those in the most random order. no structure at all. also lots of music playing. cycling through my favourite albums. eating my favourite foods.

These are my own reflections, memories, and perspective.

I'm sitting with myself, more in tune with like. what am I really missing? from my humble life. not much. not so much. I want to share with you all though, how I got here and what it takes because. lets face it. we have all dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts no doubt about it. they sometimes seemed like a constant. but, seeing as there not so common for me anymore. I have some sort of drive. some fire or that. to just tell the universe thank you for the lessons, bring on the next ones. really. love to you and continue to just be.

you guys are invited to the blog posts. threads? the simple text thoughts. Tumblr though is definitely longer form text social media for me. riddled with more memes and that. YouTube is gonna be the main priority I hope. instagram is more so my, "life lately" kinda social media form. are we keeping up? this stuff is a lot.

does it really clock to anyone else, that you really do just live the life you want. like its not hard, sure. it might seem like its the hardest thing ever. but when you're in the routine of it all. and you finally get a moment to watch the dust settle. I mostly just blink, reflect to myself and just bask in the glory that it is life. I am leading the life I thought I could live, 10 years ago. now. for the better part, the delayed gratification that comes with it. is something to behold in itself. I know I am a capable of so much more. but what I have accomplished to really get here. zooo weeee mama. happy to hear.