Pepper Tash

Grey matter only seems like a term I only wonder how I seem to drift in and out of Daydreaming for the better The like like and love of another Peculiar movements with empty promises Sworn to your mother Drop me out. As if I can't uncover The depths of the abyss that makes me The infamous unknown lover Without the cloud above my head I can tolerate far more than I can Bear. pain threshold way up Confidence from what it was Gone clear So how and what will it be I'm sure of myself now Not perfect, definitely flawed But always T

Doing what you used to Stay awake Thinking of the master plan And everything slowing and stopping it But now you're sleeping Somewhere with the master plan Even further elsewhere I'm wide awake at 3 and 5 And I can't even try to hide That the fact of what we once Shared is deep in my subconscious Dead in reality And lost in your mind Where I long to bring it From inside out Because why should I doubt that The battle and war seems to be In a complete other realm now So when I dreamt that I lay writing Appearing to be hiding to sleep You caught what I was doing And told me you see me When you stopped talking subtly on the phone...

Just when I thought I understood I learn more As I hear more Even when I don't think I can't hurt anymore I transfer the energy And it becomes More and more harder to process in my heart But clearer in my head Where the two get in a mix up and my heart just feels heavy But not quite free I only want the four parts The two strong hearts To be happy My only goal For us ALL to be happy

The real difference is the differences won't make nothing new but slow change And road rage and slow pain When there's little time With bigger shame I don't think I can do this again

My pulse races while I lay still Even when I don't overthink and keep busy This monster still will I hate the fact that it torments me Not even that far deep inside A feeling in my chest that never leaves me And always makes me forget about any pride Dignity, non romantic sanity Or just plain logic thinking This annoying drum beneath my ribs thats been broken and glued back one too many times Maybe it's just my head being lazy And my gut too tired to be instinctive Trusting way further than my worn down frame can throw So what else do I have to do and know that Eventually things will work out And this aggravating monster will just chill Because it seems I can't just go along with my heart anymore

Fan of a fan

Life hack 101