Beauty is Terror

Me: doesn't talk to anyone because I'm scared I'll annoy then Also me: why does no one talk to me am I that annoying?

I mean, am I really (possibly) asexual/aromantic or am I just making excuses because the real reason I don't have a boyfriend is that I'm an ugly annoying mess who nobody likes

It's really hard to to stick to my whole "girls supporting girls" thing when every other girl is prettier/more social/smarter/better in general than me like it's not my fault I'm jealous when everyone else is bragging about how great their lives are

It makes me laugh (/cry a bit) when people say stuff like “no one would want to marry you” or “you’ll be a virgin forever” it’s like jokes on you cause I already know that

Whenever I think I did well at something a million people always do better why can't I just be good at something

I hate my body so much why can't I just lose weight I always have to eat