fine art and thrift stores

This was another day where I lived many lives. And I am so very tired. I am currently laying in bed. Enjoying the cool air. It was very very hot and humid today.

I slept alright last night. I woke up and took a shower. Sylvia was at the bathroom door going "mommy?? Mama??" Which was very cute. I got dressed and felt good about my outfit. And I felt fine enough at first. This did not last long.

James and Sylvia gave me hugs and a cinnamon bun and walked me to the car. I had a fine drive. But my ear was really bugging me. It was just constant ringing. And my anxiety was as bad as it ever has been. The best way I can describe it is like a rock on my chest. My inner self was on their knees basically throwing up. It was not fun. I'm just glad I didn't throw up un real life.

But it would pass. And I felt jittery but functional.

I went up to art to start looking at my feild trip stuff. But it wasn't there. What was there was all of the handicraft stuff. What the hell. So I drove over to eac. And all the stuff that they had organized was still there. Hadn't been moved at all. And I was pissed.

I couldnt deal with it yet. I needed to find out what Elizabeth needed from me for the feild trip. Charlotte was at the office. I was frustrated when she didn't have any info about the feild trip today. Neither did Sarah. Then one of the rental leaders came over and wanted info about the schedule but we didn't have it. Elizabeth would come and clear everything up. Turned out they didn't even need me! They had less kids then expected. So I was able to focus in moving everything to art. I wasn't thrilled that I was the one who had to do it. When I asked 10 people on saturday to do that. And it was wicked humid. So between the heat, and the sweating, and the anxiety, and the feeling disrespected, I was not having fun.

I would make a plan once I got back to the art building. But because I was so sweaty and overheated I couldn't work on sorting. I would go back to the office to start working on making the updates to my field trip program. So that I can build my supply bins based off of the new lists.

I worked on that until 12. It was good work and it was fun. There is still a bit of stuff I can do to make them better but for a few hours of work I'm really happy with it.

I printed stuff off and made a plan for tomorrow. Chatted with Louisa and Kenny and Elizabeth. And at 1230 I left to get lunch.

I got a happy meal. The drive through line took almost 10 minutes?? But whatever. I would drive down thr road to a park and ride to have a quiet place to sit and watch my food. Before I went home.

When I got home James was there waiting for me. I love them so much. I would lay on the couch for a half hour before cleaning myself up for my tattoo appointment. My anxiety was still bad. But I was looking forward to my tattoo.

Sudesna, the artist, is so nice. I appreciate that we don't have to talk the whole time. I was thrilled with the sketch. Didn't really need any changes.

But once the stencil was on we decided it needed some flourishes. She suggested making the flowers and leaves stippled and I am so glad we went that direction. It's so fun!

This was for sure one of if not my most painful tattoo. She has such a light hand but this is area is just. Rough. I asked for a paper towel to hold because my hands were sweating and that ended up being the best thing to squeeze to distract myself. She said I sat really well. We took 2 breaks. A water and stretch break. And then a check to see how it was looking. And I was thrilled. I absolutely love how it looks. And man it hurt but it was worth it.

I was thrre about 3 hours. I paid and thanked her. She gave me a sticker for doing a good job. And I headed out into the rain.

I was really happy to get home to see Sylvia before she went to bed. She's so cute and good. James msde us fresh pasta and garlic bread for dinner. Sylvia took a bath and went to bed. James took the car to get gas. And I took a shower.

And now I am just so ready to close my eyes.

Tomorrow me and Sylvia will go to camp to work on organzing. Jess has surgery tomorrow morning so we need to put good vibes out there for her. I hope its a good day for everyone.

Today was for sure a rest day. But man I am still so very tired. And I keep scrolling on my phone and it's not making me feel better. But I just want to not think. Im not even finishing any videos. Just endlessly scrolling.

It was a good day. It was rainy. But that kept it cool. I slept alright. I think I may have punctured my ear drum from itching or just from the infection. I had a very verg sharp pain and my hearing still isn't better. Though the swelling has started to go down.

James woke me up before it was time to go to swim class. I did not join them. Opting to stay home and have some quiet time.

James gave me a relly excellent massage last night so my back didn't hurt and that was great. I wore my cute new red dress. Just decided to look cute today. My hair dyed really nice. I had an oatmeal cream pie and ran the roomba. I went upstairs and worked on the next layer of my painting project. Specifically the small shelf. Thr green is just strangely streaky. I need more white paint. It was nice to work on something.

James and Sylvia got me a bagel sandwich after swim class. Sylvia struggled after swim. Being very tired. And the bagel shop was apparently very busy and loud and she got very upset. So James and Sylvia came home both a bit upset.

Sylvia had a snack. A yogurt and some of my bagel. And then went down for a nap. James changed into bike gear to go do laps with their friend who's doing the Philadelphia ride with them. And I enjoyed laying on the couch.

I stood outside in the rain for a little. And wandered around the house. I had a donut. And waited for James to come back.

Sylvia would wake up about 20 minutes before James got back. I put her in her mermaid dress. And put her hair in buns. She had a snack while I read her a book. And when James got back we would get ready to go to the aquarium.

It took us a bit to get together and get shoes on. James had to get changed. And then it started raining. We parked in a parking garage but James had to go back to the car because we couldn't find the parking ticket and we needed that to get validation.

Me and Sylvia held hands and walked around. Waited at the elevator and waved at cars. And when James joined us we left the parking garage and walked in the rain.

I could hear a man behind us, with an Australian accent, ask his travel companions if Americans just don't care about the rain. Because we didn't have umbrellas. But it was fine. I didn't love my hair being wet but in the long run it was whatever.

We got to the aquarium and it was busier then I'm used to. But it was still nice. We went to the Cafe first to get napkins to dry off a little. And then went to the Australia exhibit.

I was just really enjoying watching my baby look at things. She was wandering around doing her baby things. I was a little dizzy, which is a side effect from the ear infection. But I was having fun.

We went to see the dolphins. Who were very active and it was fun to talk about the enrichment items that Ceila has explained to me. And then we headed to the jelly fish, which I was most excited for.

I could watch the jellies for hours. I love how ethereal they look in their tanks. Sylvia seemed to really like them too. Pointing and talking and being so very cute. We mostly just let her walk where she wanted and followed her around.

Sylvie was starting to lose steam. And only wanted to be held. Mostly by me but my arms hurt and so I would pass her to James. And we would go to the gift shop. And Sylvia picked a few plushies but I chose this pink otter for her. Because she hugged it and I liked that it was as big as her.

It had stopped raining and we got back to the car without getting wet. It would start raining again and would be on and off for the rest of the day. And we would go home to rest together.

We had a nice afternoon. We had snacks. And watched marble racing. James did the laundry and made foccia bread. One of our neighbors made a list of things they are giving away and would bring me a light up mirror. I would use that to do my eyebrows. And I had the best time.

James brought Sylvia upstairs for bath. And then they came and laid in bed with me. Sylvia climbed all over me and cuddled me and it was very sweet. And she went to bed.

And I decided I needed to close my eyes for a half hour. And I'm glad I did but when I woke up I was very woozy. I went downstairs to hang out with James and laid on the couch. Had some of the cinnamon foccica James made and it was fantastic. Such a special treat. Cinnamon rolls wish they were as good.

I took a bubble bath. And now Im in bed. And ready to sleep.

I have a feild trip at camp tomorrow. Summer camp is over but the work doesn't stop!! It just changes. And then in the afternoon I am getting my stomach tattooed. I'm excited. And nervous. I haven't seen her sketch based off of my drawings. And asking for edits is always hard and scary. But she's a sweet heart so I know it will be fine and the piece will be great. Also it's gonna hurt but it'll be worth it.