What Went Wrong?
I donโt know how it started or even when. I donโt know whatโs the reason my love for you slowly faded. I was once so excited to see you, how I still get nervous even though weโve been together for quite a long time. I still remember the way I smile when I see you walk towards me every time you pick me up when I come to your house. I still remember the times how I always wanted to spend time and do nothing with you. That feeling of always wanting to be just right beside you.
Never noticed how slowly it faded. All of it. I just noticed I stopped caring and all. Tried to revive the feelings I had for you but I think I canโt do it anymore. I donโt know why or how, I just canโt. It felt as if I was just waiting for you to end it. No. I was just really waiting for you to end our relationship. And for that, Iโm deeply sorry. I know it was selfish of me to slowly detach myself while weโre still in a relationship. Sorry for being a coward and not ending it myself. I really tried to hold on to what we had, to you. The love I had for you was just not enough anymore. Started feeling uncomfortable to your presence and your touch. Something developed in me that affected how I feel towards you. Issues I had before with you were never resolved, at least for me. Sorry for all of this selfishness on my part. I really tried hard to resolve my issues, tried to voice it out to you. Even tried to discuss it with you, but I got tired of it. Thereโs just something inside me that urged me to do the things your way. I never intended to do so, I just started treating you how you treat me. It was not a good idea, I know. I ran out of the desire to fix things and just let it be.
Sorry was not enough for all the pain that Iโve caused you, even to myself. The part of me that was always wanting to be with you walked away a long time ago. I tried running after her and sadly, I didnโt caught up with her speed and she faded from my sight. I know that nothingโs certain but I think this really is it. This is the end of our story.
