Autistic of the Opera

Didn't realize they made emergency thermal blankets for babies

whatever happens it’s so important that we’re funny about it. Above all else commit to the bit

in the monsterfucking community there are often debates on who is or isn't an "actual monsterfucker" and while i myself have no interest in gatekeeping i do feel like people in the community have a non-functional way of measuring monstrousness. i personally think that "being a monster" is more about the function in the story than about superficial appearance traits. therefore, in my worldview, count orlok from nosferatu (2024) is more of a monster than a hypothetical dragon CEO mafia boss from a romantasy book, despite one being essentially just a really ugly man and the other being, well, a dragon. because count orlok's monstrousness is integral to him, his character's function is being The Monster—he is the hidden, repressed, feared and othered part of the heroine's psyche, that by the virtue of being unintegrated grows an autonomy and unleashes destruction upon the heroine's loved ones and self. while the hypothetical dragon CEO mafia boss could've been a human CEO mafia boss and literally nothing would've changed, because his monstrousness acts merely as an enhancer of his masculinity: he is a monster for the same reason for which he is a mafia boss CEO—because it makes him big, strong and powerful, i. e., it makes him masculine (what patriarchy constructs as masculinity anyway). this is not me judging the booktok women btw, no ethical consumption under patriarchy and all that, but it is something that always made me feel alienated from the typical image of a monster-loving woman, because my desire for the monster comes from a somewhat different place. maybe there is a difference between teratophilia as a kink (something that simply enhances your experience of sexuality) and teratophilia as a kind of psychosexual philosophy, which is how i feel about mine.

NOBODY HELPS ME

We should’ve helped him

The crazy part about pain is that it actually hurts alot

no dude it's so cool how attached you are to that character who is singled out and ostracized due to the external monstrousness that clashes with their internal spark of humanity. and i love how drawn you are to themes of horror and love, nature versus nurture, otherness, isolation, and the abject. i bet you have normal feelings about your own personhood