the art you feel

but here you are everywhere I go

every time I breathe

every word you say

cutting me like a blade

I just want to be free

Free, from all this pain

everything you touch

you destroy

you destroyed me

The light I once was is consumed by darkness

I am suffocating

I no longer want to be consumed

The abuse is much more than I can bare

It disrupts my sleep

It disrupts my peace

I can’t breathe

I am gasping for air

what is love?

I know this isn’t it

I try and try

To let you go

You tell me you love me

My heart feels hope

My mind screams “NO!”

I’m torn

but your actions speak louder than word

You say “ I LOVE YOU”

They say YOU DON’T

yet I stick around in hopes your actions someday will match

But my mind is screaming “SAVE ME”

“I AM MISERABLE”

I wanted it to be

You

But I deserve better

and better starts with saying BYE!

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Take you to new heights with just our lips intertwined

As we undress and let our egos go

In this moment

It's just you and I

Your eyes speak more than your lips do

Desiring me as I desire you

Tangled in between your fingers

I am consumed in love

As my love is consuming you

We are one

Together

You told me it was okay

The calmness in your voice made me feel safe

I fell onto your lips as you caressed my hips

I believed it all to be true

but you were just a temporary muse.

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Her: In words it’s hard to explain but I’ll do my very best.

I feel it all or nothing at all. I feel it intensely where it grasps my heart and touches my soul. A lot of times it’s overwhelming too much to feel as if I was an unopened letter meant to be given to a lover but their lover never received it. See I can write love songs forever about every phase of emotions you can go through because when you experience love for what it is the good and the bad you never want to feel anything else. To feel as deeply as I do is both a blessing and a curse. At times I wish I felt nothing at all but when I do feel numb all I can keep thinking is when will I feel again so immensly that only that moment will mean so much more to me than any day before that one. Feeling is all I know whether it is good or bad they are my own. I have the power to let others in and expose these raw emotions. I also have the power to show someone how much I love them or how much I don’t. Feeling is a beauty of it’s own. Feeling is how we show how poetic we are as human beings and there is nothing more empowering than that.

I exhale and I exhale all my negative thoughts that consumed me from my past

Thoughts that held me down

Thoughts that filled me with anxiety

Moving forward and not looking back for the past is in the past

No longer will I allow for it to define me

No longer will I be caged in your dungeon

No longer being told that how I felt was not valid when I had every reason to feel

For every time I tried to walk away you grabbed my arm and begged me to stay

I use to look at myself and hate myself

Allowing my insecurities and your words define me

Allowing them to affect me to the point that I could not see myself for everything that I was and still am today

I chose to walk away because I to like everyone else deserve happiness

I chose the path that I felt was best fit for me to experience everything that life has to offer

Love, happiness, and growth

See you and I were growing in different paths

You wanted to remain stagnant and I wanted to make more room to grow

Desiring to find myself again

To love myself and to show others that I can love them too

Here I am with no regrets walking down this path

intelligence,

lips that do more than kiss

A soul that radiates

We are so much more than just a body

We have the cosmos within us

We are the universe

and everyday each of us are experiencing life

A life with with many optional paths

Let us radiate

Let us shine for we came from a place that is vast and beautiful like each of us.

With our eyes closed we are all the same

A body containing the cosmos within.

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555 ✨

I never thought I could love again

But then it happened,

I fell in love again.

It is messy yet beautiful

Loving you is poetry,

Skin deep and expressive.

Calmly as I sit and wait for the sun to set

For I am the Ocean

I am ONE with the Earth

I allow everyone in for I am vast and beautiful

Never do I remain the same

For my waves constantly change.