Blind Abyss

I've been cat called 3 times in the last month. They went as follows:

1. Man with his friends as they passed by (while I was walking with my boyfriend): Yeah, that's one beautiful woman. Look at dat ass. (some other mumblings about me that weren't very audible, but one of them wouldn't stop double taking until far away)

    Outfit: skin-tight green dress with flowers on it. Pretty short.

2. Man in passenger's seat of a car going past: "Hey girl, where you sleepin tonight?

to which I replied, "Fuck you"

to which he replied, "Yeah girl? How much?"

Outfit: every day jean capris and a t-shirt

3. Man from a car going past: whistling

Outfit: Pink tank top, denim skirt, heels

and I realize I've lost a few very close friends...not really because anyone did anything wrong, but just because people grow and change and aren't that trustworthy person you used to have in your life. There are very few people in my life I would call a close friend. So far my boyfriend and my mother are the top two because I know they'll be on my side no matter what. Other than that, I sometimes feel as though I can't trust people anymore and that saddens me. Especially since I always took pride in the fact that I was open and honest and vulnerable with people. I'm becoming jaded and that makes me feel so anxious and sad.