I want to see the stars die

What'd I get up to?

Oh, well my hometown burnt down,

I worked at a summer camp, it was really fun!

And I'm drowning in itemized lists and price tags because my grandma is too dead to do it herself.

Nothing is left.

but if he had seen the monstrosity

of flame, not house

he might have wondered the melting point of metal;

if he would ever return home

are here

back here

It was strange seeing you,

I wondered if you faced away on purpose

if you saw me too

if you noticed

I wondered what you talked about

what you said

I wondered if the reminder made you nauseous

if your coffee date noticed

Mine did

It was abberant,

but not abhorrent

All you had to do was see

the irreparable damage done to me .

I didn't even lie to you.

I didn't need to.

All you had to was see

the irreparable damage done to me.

You weren't supposed to double down,

You weren't supposed to join in.

You weren't supposed to find joy in

the irreparable damage done to me.

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I'm not sorry for fighting back,

I don't regret the emotional injuries incurred

after you saw the knife in my spine and twisted it.

I didn't expect you to add to the irreparable damage done to me.

I'm not sorry for telling the truth,

but I hope you regret the emotional injuries incurred

after you heard my words as harsh.

When you used your own like weapons.

You watched how brutally deep they cut me.

You had proof of the irreparable damage done to me.

I don't want to blame the hands

guided by the same manipulator as mine.

I wanted to kill you. I wanted to save you.