I didnβt know who you were
until you pulled me inward, close to you.
Your confidence and will toward me
and I felt like something in your presence.
I liked being the one who saw you for who you were,
and that I gave myself to you.
that maybe you were only after one thing.
So where did your heart go?
When you just came and went
but never followed through.
You only came when it suited you.
Where were you when I needed you?
and I was always where we left off
but did you carry anything?
but not the one you were to meβ¦
I saw small glimpses of your heart in your eyes
You were everything I saw once.
All those cuts you gave me
without even seeing them.
I bled what you left in me.
I stood in everything you left behind.
So where did your heart go?
Was I just someone you usedβ¦
something you could walk away from whenever you wanted?
But youβre not protected
if someone asks me one day
or if I ever speak from my heart
to someone who wants to hear it all.
Because in small drops I laugh,
or it leaks out in thoughts of you.
Itβs not that I want to go back,
But I know the only way forward now
even if itβs not the same
as when you were in my life.
I no longer know where to go
after the emptiness you left behind.
Because Iβm no longer searching