It's scary what a Smile can Hide.

1. we would miss you. 2. it’s not worth the regret. either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. it does get better. believe it or not it will eventually get better. sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. there’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. there is always a reason to live. it might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. so many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. you ARE worth it. don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. you are amazing. 9. a time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. you will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. because things always get better. 10. what about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? what about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? you can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. i love you. even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. you won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. killing yourself is never worth it. you’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. there are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. you’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. how do you think your family would feel? would it improve their lives if you died? 17. you’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again. 19. you’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. listening to incredibly loud music. 21. being alive is just really good. 22. not being alive is really bad. 23. finding your soulmate. 24. red pandas 25. going to diners at three in the morning. 26. really soft pillows. 27. eating pizza in neww york city. 28. proving people wrong with your success. 29. watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. being able to help other people. 32. bonfires. 33. sitting on rooftops. 34. sweing every single country in the world. 35. going on roadtrips. 36. you might win the lottery someday. 37. listening to music on a record player. 38. going to the top of the eiffel tower. 39. taking really cool pictures. 40. literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. hearing crazy stories. 42. telling crazy stories. 43. eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. more harry potter books could come out, you never know. 45. travelling to another planet someday. 46. having an underwater house. 47. randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. trampolines. 50. think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke. 52. tour survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. people do care. 54. treehouses. 55. hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse. 55. snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees. 56. i don’t even know you and i love you. 57. i don’t even know you and i care about you. 58. because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. you won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. starbucks. 62. hugs. 63. stargazing. 64. you have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. you’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. now you could change the world. 67. you will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. no matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. you have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. if you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. making snow angels. 72. making snowmen. 73. snowball fights. 74. life is what you make of it. 75. everybody has a talent. 76. laughing until you cry. 77. having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. the world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79.its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. be yourself, don’t take anyone’s sh*t, and never let them take you alive. 81. heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. be your own hero. 82. heing happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. it means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. one day your smile will be real. 84. having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. eating crazy food. 88. staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. sleeping in all day. 90. creating something you’re proud of. 91. you can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit. 92. being able to meet your internet friends! 93. tea/coffee/hot chocolate. 94. dan and phil. 95. cuddling under the stars. 96. being stupid in public because you just can. 97. if you are reading this then you are alive! is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years. 99. people care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. but, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen!

& if that isn’t enough:

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just in case you’re having a hard time.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

N (via askabout-nikki)

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