'he would not fucking say that' maybe he would if he knew he was starring in his very own porn fic for the sole purpose of delighting some freaks on archive of our own dot org. maybe he'd play it up for the cameras. ever consider that

“Maybe when all this is over.” “Is it ever going to be—” is actually one of the most haunting lines from aftg

when Neil dies after Baltimore, Andrew surrounds himself with everything that still smells like him. he gathers Neil’s clothes around himself and refuses to leave Neil’s bed, because they’re the only things that still carry his scent. he clings to them just as desperately, terrified that even that last trace of Neil will eventually fade. no one can bring themselves to pull him away. and no one tries.

GOD BLESSS. KEVJEAN IS FUCKING SICKENING. I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM. I love jerejean and i love kerejean trust, but there is a very special place in my heart for kevjean and it will be my undoing (i will he fanarting them if its the last thing i do on this earth. Blessings)

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Jeremy to Kevin was what Renee was to Jean btw

i have this theory that jean's big cathartic moment at the end of tgr when he breaks down and admits he didn't deserve the sexual abuse he experienced is actually preceded by a more subtle version of this moment, one made possible by the fact that it involves the only other person who can understand what he's been through. when andrew realizes that neil could have been similarly abused at evermore, he asks jean to confirm or deny it. jean tells him that it would not have been an appropriate punishment for neil, and andrew, clearly shaken and unimpressed with this answer, presses the issue, asking what circumstances would have made it appropriate. it is jean's response to this that i find most revealing: he says, "you of all people should not have to ask." yes, this is a pointed reference to andrew's own experiences with sexual abuse, but what is jean actually saying? i think he's saying, "you of all people should know there is nothing that could possibly justify it. of course there isn't. but your abusers will tell you there is, and you'll believe them because how else can you make sense of what is happening to you." after he says this, jean digs a thumb into andrew's wrist and drags it up his forearm, where he knows from riko that andrew has self-harm scars. this is him driving home the point, saying "you've had to do things to survive too." because that's what jean's deep-seated conviction of "deserving it" is— a survival mechanism. and at the end of tgr, he finally feels safe enough to let it go.

Kevin “It'll be easier if he remains heterosexual” Day and his “perfect court” which consists of two gay couples that he has complicated interpersonal involvement with.

sorry jean is a stronger man than me. if neil josten pulled up to my sickbed with his boy toy and his boy toy’s boy toy (my ex situationship) and told me how all 5 foot 2 of him tricked a mob boss into saving all of our lives i might kill my self in front of him just to prove a point