Owl's Rant

I’m afraid of being too perfect

I am someone who doesn’t know how to express their own feelings in a right way. My mind it’s complicated, i think about something but i talk about another thing. Also in the middle of speaking i can’t complete a sentence, like what’s going on inside of my brain, i can’t tell you because i myself don’t know. One thing I’m sure about my self is that i THINK i can do everything, i can write a book if i want to, i can be i lawyer or a tech person, but all of these thoughts are inside of my brain, it’s not like i can actually do these things. Whether i can do these things or it’s just in my mind, i do think it’s the self independence in me, at a very young age i learned that dreams are nothing but dreams, you can’t actually achieve anything without money or support, you can’t survive this world with one talent in your hands, you have to know how to do everything and anything. So when i see someone who’s doing something amazing yet complicated, my narcissistic mango thinks it can do it and much more. Yes i know i sound very ambitious, but trust me when i say that i am the laziest person in the whole wide world, what’s the point of just thinking about it when i can’t even do it in actual life.

Although I’m writing this on the internet, i would like to nobody know about it. (even though I’m putting tags 🌚) . But to be serious, sometimes we humans need attention but not that much, like i want people to see but not like a million person, maybe a hundred or less. I sometimes go on rants talking about absolutely nothing, but that’s me, i would rather let it all out then put it inside my heart and brain and let it suffer.