Our Lives in Numbers. (:

2. I got to Cox a varsity boat today. I'm a rower, not a coxswain. That was a different view from the boat today. I was freaking out a lot. That's a 55 foot long boat and they expect me to see to the very end of it to get a point and not to crash into everything? I am now appreciative for all the coxswains on my team and on the men's team. Thank you for being our savior, because without you, we'd die.

Why I'm not so excited? 18 fucking units. My friend's right. I am crazy. I miss my old friends. Some of the people I used to call my best friends from high school.

I can no longer do anything.

Having gotten promoted I've been working more. Because I've been working more, I just want to sleep. I want my hero to come home already. He's taking me out to a nice dinner once he's back. I can't wait!

Getting promoted at work. Should be an interesting day.

Moving on. I thought it would be harder than this. I thought that I would be utterly broken still. It's been three months but things have been getting better. Looking for Colorado to be home now. Maybe that's just where I'm going to die. Hopefully it will be easy to go. I don't see why not. Maybe Matthew will become nothing but a bad dream. Maybe I'm worried for no reason. But still a part of me thinks, "What if he could have loved you, really loved you, and you let him go?"

Also see: Bored To Death.

Short-handed everyday at work now. Been stuck with the douche most times. I close alone every other day. Working massive over time. The douche complains he works too much. Obviously, he's working about 30 hours. I'm the one work 42+ hours in one week. Everyone is about part time or so. Everyone but the busiest of us all there... Me. 

I am going to end up with this man. I will.

Work tonight. Jason's going to be there....ewwwww and Alexes. Ugh. Closing shift. Maybe I'll have a really cute customer tonight?

Oh well, putting another mask on my face in the next five minutes.

I have to write two papers :b

EASY A+

Stupid people just aren't worth your time.

Uhh. Excuse me ? My last post was about you. NOT ME. You find a guy, you lose the guy, you find a new guy. That's what I was talking about. Plus, I don't go around thinking that every guy I'm with "might be the one". No, I only felt that with John.

Sorry. Didn't realize it posted on " your" blog. And I'm pretty sure that I never commented on your weird jumping between guys. Did I? No. Pretty sure I didn't and only supported you because I wanted you to be happy. Thanks for dampening my mood! :D ------- Tonight is the double date!! Worried and nervous. :)

I find it weird how you say almost the exact same thing about every guy you talk to. How he might be the one. And how you can so easily jump from one guy to the next. I don't understand