sorry about the flickering halogen lamp

books:

dragonriders of pern

stormlight archive

dragonriders of pern but again

earthsea

i have a hate/hate relationship with house of leaves and im planning to burn my copy

manga:

to your eternity

one piece?? .howd that happen

heterologenia linguistica(i think it's called) this one is SO COOL!!

boys run the riot

games:

pyre

bastion

ffxiv

gw2

xenoblade chronicles x

ys(8 and 9 specifically have The Themes to me)

kiseki/trails(but i really only care about Truck Guy So Truck He's Named Van and his accidentally adopted kids. so Daybreak it is)

disco elysium but specifically shivers. and also the bug about the whole thing

the messenger

sword of the sea

monster hunter and meditations on taking an active role in ecological preservation and health

etrian odyssey

pillars of eternity 2 but specifically just. getting more and more pissed at Eothas and Berath as shit continues. rymrgand is the only cool guy there

pmd:eos

outer wilds

titanfall 2

botw/totk

fossil fighters. not frontier, that one doesn't exist

wildermyth!

nioh 2. also literally anything team ninja makes ohhh my god-

no man's sky. please dissect the narrative themes of the base game story as a foil to the playerbase upon its initial release. please. pl

armored core!!!!!!!

tunic(PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLAY THIS)

dark souls 3. but not actually playing it. spinning its narrative in my head as a plea to Let Things Die

dragons dogma. 1 and 2. they are not separable to me and one of these days i will share The Dragonsplague Funeral Story

norco. the best game i never want to touch again.

spiritfarer

gravity rush!!

okami

shadow of the colossus

final fantasy tactics advance 2 my favorite game to Snap Over My Ninja's Knee

sword of the sea

chants of sennaar

chrono trigger

golden sun: dark dawn

ffxi. final fantasy 11. as a way to bond with my dad and also explore a(narratively) slowly fading world

radiant historia

legend of zelda: twilight princess

in stars and time

shows/movies:

mushishi(!!!!!so much this so much this so much this s

violet evergarden

somali and the forest spirit

gundam iron blooded orphans. im giving tekkadan ice cream and therapy

dorohedoro

trigun stampede. specifically. i love the og but there's Something Here Also

lotr, but specifically mr aragorn, he is my unrealistic gender goals

in gen 2(Freedom Unite) he didn't inflict poison

he debuffed ur stamina

i didn't care enough to remember how exactly the debuff worked but it made the bar flash geen and i thought that was more fun than sheathing my weapon to chug herbal medicine

didnt help that i was playing fu on an iphone with touch screen controls

good GAME.

i like. tonfa

beats you to Death one millionth of your ki at a time. kickflips away(takes damage because forgot no i-frames on kickflip). throws the contents of kitchen drawer at you. they are knives and five of them explode

your ki is gone,

and anyways credits. so you have to look at him

thanks for your public service of looking

-muninn. it's beautiful here. this moon- any moon under the eye of a gas giant- it makes me want to shred my sensors and never look at anything again. it's so beautiful. and this ruin, i don't know if it's gek or korvax or what- there's signs of both- old history scratching at my mind, maybe in there's the answer- but... this is a chapel.

-i know it in my core. this is a chapel. i've never been more certain about anything. ever.

-maybe it's for the colossus above. i know that's what i'd build one for, here. maybe to the trinary suns. maybe to the rainbows that haven't stopped. i don't know.

-it's a chapel, though.

-i'm not the praying sort, but i'll make an exception for this... for this.

-i want to see more. but i want to stay here. i'm leaving a piece of me behind again.

-thanks for recording this.

-recordings will never capture it. but... maybe. maybe i can return- that's a lie, of course, but it's comfortable as lies go.

-nomad-anomaly. can't put down roots. live from a ship. no freighter could ever be home. no base, no village.

-i don't know. maybe it's a curse.

-for sights like this, it's a curse.

-i hope your new shell suits you. it suits me. it's home, or close enough, and much less cramped than that refurbished sentinel ship. a bunk. a cockpit that doesn't leave scratch marks on my arms and legs. even greenery. and the hatch, it can open in flight- in vacuum.

-do you know how it feels? watching the stars smear. not from behind half a dozen layers of protection, either. just... there.

-and... the feeling of being tugged into the captivity of a world's gravity. it's sublime. giving in to a flow utterly beyond my grasp. you feel it every entry, so of course you get it.

-and i can feel the clouds slipping through my fingers. that moment of wetness before it's scoured by the air beneath. i'm glad we invested in this... corvette, or whatever it's called. really glad.

-you don't mind that i'm calling it the loup-garou, right? just calling it the ashlight again didn't feel right. i don't know where that name comes from- maybe... maybe it's vy'keen, or something.

-well, it feels right. i hope you like it, too.

-i know you keep worrying about the fire hazards in the bunk area. sorry. i need them, just to... keep calm.

-i have no softness so it comes from cloth. has to. it- it's like i'm filling a void that's never been full.

-no warmth of my own, so i huddle in cloaks. i wonder what it's like, having blood and flesh and organs. nostalgic? maybe?

-i hope you can see the things i see. i connected my optic lens to your processing- maybe we can share my wanderings. maybe you're- maybe you're not even looking.

-thought that counts?

-i'm getting sidetracked. i've noticed something lately. every time i sleep. it doesn't feel like i'm sleeping. it feels like i'm being pulled into some other kind of wakefulness. pulled beyond the reach of the atlas- it's not real. i know. it's just... weird cognition feedback, i know.

-something hurts in memories i don't have.

-i'm used to these strangenesses by now. maybe it's because of the... possibility rooted in my body. that gentle red reminder of a great and terrible fear. of the wonders we walk because of that fear, that desperation.

-sometimes i wish i could reach out of all the boundaries and just... just for a moment, let those few minutes tick away.

-let it end. see what happens. if it's just an inevitable loss of power or something more.

-morbid.

-that's morbid. forget i said that.

i have not actually gotten less feral

i need horizon 2 more than ever

for the love of god go play Daybreak and Daybreak 2 and Horizon. they have story demos.

we need more people playing these games because this is PRIME AUGHHHHGHG MATERIAL

i'm talking extremely pathetic men. also cool women. also people you can't fix(challenge)

and i'm talking every npc has their own story you can follow and check in on chapter after chapter

and i'm talking consistently the best written sidequests i've seen in gaming

i'm talking actually just so many utter freaks also

just freaks, absurd people, weird little fucks

people you love to hate and also just love(his name is harwood. fucking bitch)

actual!! genuinely fascinating!!! mystery!!!!!!! which i am scratching my head over

anyways. you don't have to play the other trails games. you can watch cutscene compilations they do the trick(i did)

the music fucks supremely also btw. but it's falcom. we knew that

and god there has never been consistently better localization by a dev(with one notable exception in Horizon but i cannot lie i got fond of that thing)

and did you know: it's my favorite soulslike and has been for At Least Four Years?

anyways. it has a photo mode which doubles as an easily(ish) accessible pause, AND you can advance the game frame by frame within, and if you've known me for any amount of time, this fact should scare you.

have you seen him?

now you have.

freak

freak

but here's gogmazios

so visual spoilers for my dog .

second version

i am fucked