Do you ever just feel it in your soul that one day you will die at your own hand and yeah things get better then worse then better then worse then better again but it always ends with you feeling worse again. I just feel it so deep inside of me and have felt it for decades to where I know in my heart that that's the way I'm going out. I've tried 3 times already but somehow I'm still going.
Today I learned what Passive Su*cidal Ideation is and I guess that's what this is?
Is that what this is?
Why is it still here with me?
