ad astra

does anybody know how to get out of bed. or be a better person

I Might be experiencing a new hyperfixation again. it's been a long time because I got into starex during a time of extreme trauma and was unable to move on from starex for the next 4 years, but it looks like maybe I have a new media catching my interest again....we'll see...

ngl it's SCARY like omfg. Idk how to do that. I'm not ready to leave my trains behind either. am I getting worse? am I getting better? am I moving forward or am I going to end up right back where I started?

the thing they dont tell you about learning to "trust the process" is that you forget and relearn it every single time you make a new piece of art. unfortunately there is no cure either