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(The Outlast Trials is an M-Rated horror game that often contains content such as intense violence, excessive blood and gore, explicit language, drug references, medical malpractice, religious themes and references, references to and inspiration from real-world history and events (such as MK Ultra and WWII), sexual themes, nudity, and sensitive subjects such as abuse (of all kinds), and bigotry (racism, misogyny, ableism, etc.). These topics are bound to come up when discussing the game and its characters, so both the game and this blog are unsuitable for those under 18 years old. Do not interact unless you are 18 or older.)
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NAME: Cyrus
Age: 18
Pronouns: They/Them
I have recently begun a hyperfixation on The Outlast Trials. This sideblog was made mainly to avoid accidentally exposing minor followers on my main to the more explicit content in the game. (As well as to stop flooding my main with just Outlast Trials posts and maybe even stop flooding the main tags for Outlast Trials with my stupid yaps)
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All of my own art will still be using my ābeepsparks artā tag.
I like a lot of characters, but my biggest favs are: Leland Coyle, Erik
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Drew Coyle AGAIN in an attempt to make him look less cute and more intimidating/scary in my art. Yāknow what close enough I think Iām happy with this. (Also yes I tried to make him a bit more chubby. I am a chubby Coyle believer)
Thought about Coyleās concept art and was looking at it (particularly the one with various clothing designs shown) before zooming in to get a closer lookā¦
Please never look at me like that again, sir. That is terrifying.
Got major artstyle envy from pretty much everyone in this fandom especially because I cannot for the life of me make characters look āscaryā so I ended up making some bs and experimenting (WIP, needs more clothing folds/wrinkles + some parts of Coyleās design are missing)
If I canāt make at LEAST Coyle look spooky Iām going to die horribly
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Still attempting to cook up ideas for my self-insert seeing Prime Assets in specific ways in nightmares/art (https://www.tumblr.com/ontheclockwithmurkoff/818350264500256768/thinking-about-my-reagentsona-reagent-4148) but I tried to draw Coyle last night and it ended up looking kinda stupid (like an edgy 13 year old drawing characters)
I should probably experiment or learn more drawing tips in general because I do actually want to make some characters look more scary/creepy but canāt because my style is too cute/cartoony. I look at everyone with more realistic styles with envy istg.
ANYWAY during all of that I have thought of more general concepts with everyone.. below the cut bc this might be long
All ānightmareā versions (oh my god now this sounds like some stupid fnaf bs) of Prime Assets look vaguely like silhouettes. Their color palettes are extremely limited (generally black with maybe white or maybe even a different color line art, with another color (usually red) on specific details (like maybe eye color or say uhh. Coyleās wires))
Theyāre all usually 2 feet taller than the Prime Assets ACTUALLY are. (And since theyād be taller, theyād likely be more physically strong too.) This is from me in my own gameplay crouching too much, so I see enemies as taller than they actually are. So Iām projecting it onto my self-insert.
āNightmareā Prime Assets may have bigger/more dangerous weapons. (Size might be there to accommodate for them being bigger than normal) I doubt Iād make anything COMICALLY large, but I can see weapons having slight modifications to be even more painful/lethal. Like maybe the drill in Dr. Futtermanās mouth can split open into 4 parts. Or Coyleās cattle prod being slightly larger than normal and having longer, more sharp prods at the end. Possibly also having even stronger voltage.
They might have specific features. I was imagining Coyle would have constantly exposed teeth thatād either be in a scowl, or smiling (since all Cyrus has seen of him is either him raging or being WAY too excited to hurt someone, almost never neutral). Or maybe Coyle also constantly having smoke come out of him, from both the battery and either a cigarette in his mouth, or just out of his mouth in general. Idk. I need to think of things for others.
Generally, I do want to make them look more scary and maybe exaggerate parts of them WITHOUT turning them into something inhuman (as fun as something like body horror could beā¦), I want them to look human while still being off-putting and intimidating.
Btw, this is NOT an AU and āNightmareā Prime Assets are NOT real! As I said earlier, Iām thinking of this as a fun thing to torment my self-insert with. As I could see their nightmares exaggerating Prime Assetsā appearances to make them a little more scary to Cyrus than they already are! (Or Cyrus drawing them looking like that.)
Although I feel like realistically āNightmareā Prime Assets would not be silhouettes and would share a similar appearance to the real PAs, just with exaggerated or modified features. But unfortunately I think thatās beyond my art skill and creativity so I donāt think Iām gonna try that yet. š although it could be a fire ideaā¦ Cyrus constantly seeing Prime Assets in much scarier ways when actually in the trials even when they donāt actually look like thatā¦ idk. I am attempting to cook but I keep undercooking the damn food.
Thinking about my reagentsona (Reagent #4148, Cyrus Starlowe (shares my same name but if I ever seem to write things in the 3rd person then Iām likely talking about my self-insert))ā¦
I was thinking of a concept based around the idea āhow does Cyrus interpret/see Prime Assets in their nightmaresā, since I have a nightmare problem IRL and itād definitely get worse if I was in the trials. The thing is idk if itād be like āthe Prime Assets genuinely look like this in their nightmaresā or just, when trying to remember or even drawing them, Cyrus has the tendency to see and draw them in exaggerated ways.
In my head itās either silhouettes of Prime Assets with sharp features and very scratchy linework, or Prime Assets but specific things about them are exaggerated. Maybe both, idk.
I also want my own gameplay experiences to play into it. For example: I crouch way too often, so enemies appear as way taller than they actually are. I didnāt even know until seeing clips that up close, Coyle actually isnāt that big (although he IS usually in a horrible posture when doing his (aggravated) idle animation). So in Cyrusā nightmares, every prime asset is taller than they actually are. Which could also imply āCyrus feels weak and helpless, smaller and below Prime Assetsā.
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Thinking about my reagentsona (Reagent #4148, Cyrus Starlowe (shares my same name but if I ever seem to write things in the 3rd person then Iām likely talking about my self-insert))ā¦
I was thinking of a concept based around the idea āhow does Cyrus interpret/see Prime Assets in their nightmaresā, since I have a nightmare problem IRL and itād definitely get worse if I was in the trials. The thing is idk if itād be like āthe Prime Assets genuinely look like this in their nightmaresā or just, when trying to remember or even drawing them, Cyrus has the tendency to see and draw them in exaggerated ways.
In my head itās either silhouettes of Prime Assets with sharp features and very scratchy linework, or Prime Assets but specific things about them are exaggerated. Maybe both, idk.
I also want my own gameplay experiences to play into it. For example: I crouch way too often, so enemies appear as way taller than they actually are. I didnāt even know until seeing clips that up close, Coyle actually isnāt that big (although he IS usually in a horrible posture when doing his (aggravated) idle animation). So in Cyrusā nightmares, every prime asset is taller than they actually are. Which could also imply āCyrus feels weak and helpless, smaller and below Prime Assetsā.
I said if I donāt draw Gooseberry next everyone has permission to kill me but the urge to draw my slop (self insert stuff with Coyle, mainly just drawing how theyād possibly interpret him. Maybe in nightmares) is so bad. Luckily I have self control so letās draw everyoneās favorite mama ā¤ļø
Having a habit of imagining cuddling my favs to sleep is so funny because that is a HORRIBLE idea for almost every Outlast character. Bonus points for when the whole thing about me getting a nightmare about being chased by Coyleā¦ HAPPENED AFTER I IMAGINED CUDDLING HIM TO SLEEP THAT SAME NIGHT. What do you even call that. Spiritual rejection?? š man Iām dead
Having a habit of imagining cuddling my favs to sleep is so funny because that is a HORRIBLE idea for almost every Outlast character. Bonus points for when the whole thing about me getting a nightmare about being chased by Coyleā¦ HAPPENED AFTER I IMAGINED CUDDLING HIM TO SLEEP THAT SAME NIGHT. What do you even call that. Spiritual rejection?? š man Iām dead
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Notes: Part two of my coylemolova rant from a few days ago. It's entirely my look/thoughts on Coyle's background! Beware some speculation and unused content from the games. This is mostly copied from an analysis I already did with my trials discord group but revised, I'll show the original + some silly fanart i did at the end.
Content/Warnings: CSA, Misogyny, racism, abuse, sexual violence, murder, and all other warnings you would associate with The Outlast Trials. Read with caution and mindfulness of yourself if need be.
Outlast as a whole has always really been to me about how one's early environment reflects in who they are as a person later on in life. Not one villain in these games is evil Just Because, and the characters with some of the worst actions/crimes committed are they way they are due to their upbringing, and Coyle is a fantastic representation of someone abused turning into an abuser, I think.
This comic is fairly vague? With whether or not Leland was the one being sexually abused or the one doing it, which makes me think it was actually both. First as a victim, and then as he grew older, again as a perpetrator in retaliation or, as a theme with Coyle, trying to regain control and autonomy in a sense for himself- as cycles of abuse tend to go.
I personally believe it was his mother who abused him in this way, on top of her likely having hit and berated him growing up. He mentions her a lot more frequently than his father- Comparing Gooseberry (Someone he, in Prime Time dialogues, both sexualizes and degrades, which I think is, again, part of his power fantasy and desire for control/revenge) to her; something, something, "Like a corpse playing dress up, reminds me of my own sweet mother". In an unused line, he recalls his mother, 'twisting my fiddles/vittles (slang for male genitalia), forcing me into the water'.
I think this in part plays into how he treated his wives- which is very safely assumedly horribly, based on the very meek and terrified woman Clyde meets when stalking Coyle- as well as just his general attitude towards women. His wives were really just accessories he liked because they were pretty, his attraction was purely physical, of course he killed each of his wives. Not only would he be paranoid about the whole sort of vulnerability thing, where you are tired to someone who'll know all your weaknesses and your flaws and corruption, he largely also did not see them as people*, and no one was seemingly alarmed or questioning too deeply when a woman under his roof would die, because at the end of the day he wasn't finding much trouble in marrying at all.
*A lot of men with absent, violent, etc. Mothers tend to see women less like people and are more aggressive/hold resenting views toward their mothers that never really go away, largely because it doesn't get addressed and God knows Coyle wouldn't get therapy. Men were and still aren't allowed by society to be vulnerable in a meaningful sense, really, ESPECIALLY during this period. The Great Depression and back to back war really spurred that 'us against them'/'pull yourself by your bootstraps' mentality into a lot of people.
