kingdeded3

I walk everywhere. I walk to and from work. I walk to get coffee. I walk to visit my parents. I walk for my job. Today I walked 13,329 steps so far, which is, to be clear, on the low end for me on work days. For example, last Thursday I walked 24,376 steps. I lift and push and pull so many heavy objects for my job, like today when a customer ordered over 300 pounds of mulch, which I moved on my own. More than my own body weight, and I didn’t pull a muscle or overexert myself, because handling that much weight is not out of the ordinary for me. I have the muscles to back that work up.

All this and I’m still fat. I do not look muscular. It’s a bit frustrating to be hearing so many people tell me directly and indirectly both in my close friends and family and complete strangers that I should start a diet and set a goal weight. That the pants from high school that don’t fit anymore should be kept as a reminder that I need to lose weight. That somehow I’ve “let myself go” since I was 16 even though I eat way healthier and exercise so many times over now what I used to do back then. It doesn’t matter what I do. I watch my skinny friends eat enough food for three people, and I look at my baked tofu I couldn’t finish, and I’m jealous that they live in a world where these thoughts never cross their mind, that they don’t have friends or family bugging them the way I’ve had. One time I had some friends compliment me on losing some weight, and all I could think about was how I’d been working 12s (30k steps a day easy) and forgetting to eat entirely. That’s how I’m supposed to lose it? Just stop eating? That doesn’t sound healthy.

And to all companies who put "working with ai tools" as a desired skill on a graphic designer position: Fuck you. If you are not looking for a creative then why are you even making a job offering man I'm just so frustrated.

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