(The one Harry amd y/n fight based on misunderstanding each other, a little sad and mentioned of suciding, happy ending)
No matter how long I cry or curse him , no matter how my hate is big, my love for him is always bigger.
Normal life for us is stupid description, I don’t know about him before me but I was never normal , had a family so far from normal and unfortunately far from peaceful.
Maybe that was the reason I stayed away from Harry the first time I met him but he insisted, on us , on our love.
I crunched on floor of the studio, he was in another room working on his music. My tears fell and I erased them fast. No time for weakness, I knew from the start that this is going to happen. He’s going to get tired of me in some way, he’ll recognize I’m broken beyond fixing and eventually he’ll leave me. I just didn’t want it to come this soon.
Sarah came in the room as a thunder “thank god you’re here , I’ve been looking for you” she closed the door behind her and glanced my way “oh girl” she said with sympathy.
I stand up , closing my tearful eyes. “What is it?” I answered with some attitude However regret it the same moment “sorry I’m ..... I’m just not in the best shape” she stepped closer “it’s Harry right?”
She knows. Of course she does, he officially denied me in front of whole people in building after I asked him if I can talk with him in private, and his voice was far from kind.
“It’s not important, I’m going home” I grabbed my bag but she hold my arm “just listen to me for a second, he’s under lots of pressure these days” I nod still staring at the wall opposite of Sarah “y/n believe me when I say he’s already regretting it” I shake my head. If he does it’s too late.
“I need to go” she runs after me “y/n please” I just shake my head and run out of building.
I know where I’m going. This is the only place I have for me, no one knows about it even Harry, so taking a cab, was the only option I have for getting to the cliff.
The wind flys past me as I stare down. I may look like someone who wants to die, but I’m not going to do something stupid, I’m just imaging my mother in my head, how she decided o leave us and end her life here.
Harry’s words echoes behind my vision of mother “you need to learn when you’re a bother to someone and let go” am I that clingy?
Crying till my tears are dry, staying till the next day sunset, my misery fades in lighter colors.
I took another cab toward our share apartment. I think maybe i should look for another loft but not now, I just need to sleep this sorrow away.
After Paying the cab, I went upstairs to our apartment, how our means so nonexistent right now.
Before opening the door, it gets open and there stands Harry in his clothes from yesterday “oh baby” he pulled me in his arms and sighs. I was cold the whole night that his warmth melts me in his arms.
“I was going crazy, looked everywhere for you, don’t do this again” I just nod as tears falls down again. Like the whole night wasn’t enough “you’re cold as Ice” he checked me for any injuries, “I’m good Harry” he just hold my face and stares in my eyes “I’m so sorry baby, so sorry don’t know how to ....” I cut him off mid sentence “not now. I’m tired” he just nods but not convinced, I went to our bedroom and fall on bed with my clothes still on. He came after me and start to undress my clothes from yesterday.
Then he lays on bed , holds me in his arms just in silence, as if a word can break us apart.
I don’t know how long I was sleep but I know i was in Harry’s arms the whole time and he was wide awake the whole time. I found out by looking in his eyes when I woke up “hi” he nods gently. I sighs. Not sure where we’re standing“I was accused of violating” he suddenly said , I opened my eyes shocked “what?”
He nods “by some woman in our studio, she said I grabbed her one time and bruised her arm, told I had aggressively treating her” I sit on our bed still can’t believe such thing. Harry is the most kind and gentle human being in world.
“Why?” I had so many to ask yet that was the only thing that came out “money, she’s lying, but my lawyer is taking care of it. We’re keeping it out of media’s ear”
Tears found their way to my eyes one more time “I’m sorry” I said and he shakes his head “no no , I’m the sorry one baby, I’m going crazy thinking of all the scenarios in my head, was there a time that ..... I don’t know ... maybe by mistake, that I’ve treated her wrong.. I just ...” I hold his face in my palms. He’s so broken and tired and I was so selfish enough that didn’t found out sooner “no Harry no, it’s impossible, I know you, everyone does”
He just nods “I’m sorry I took it out on you, I was just frustrated and scared that you would find out” I listen as he takes a deep breathe “ I was scared you’re going to believe her and leave Me” I laugh, a real but bitter laugh “are you crazy? Harry I would never , how could I?”
He just nods and I lay in his arms for more.
We stayed in silence again. Deep in our thoughts.
“Don’t do this again” I look at his face “just don’t disappear on me again, I was so scared , I thought I lost you forever” his tears fall down and I couldn’t hold it anymore as I go for his lips “never... going ... to leave ... you” he nods between our kiss “good”
Just few hours ago I was so disappointed of his love and now I was so loved In His arms.
I’m sure it’s far from normal. Nothing is, this man for sure isn’t, he’s imaginary unordinary.
