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"Woke up this morning with a terrific urge to lie in bed all day and read. Fought against it for a minute.

Then looked out the window at the rain. And gave over. Put myself entirely in the keep of this rainy morning.

Would I live my life over again? Make the same unforgivable mistakes? Yes, given half a chance. Yes."

I’m growing apart from the person I’ve been closest to in my whole life. Anytime I think about this stuff i just want to literally starve myself to near death so I don’t have to think about any of it. I can just self isolate and focus on my silly little weight loss and come back disgustingly thin in a few months and then he’ll will finally see the actual mental toll this stuff takes on me.

(Makes two portions. For the whole thing 290!! Usually I only eat half bc it’s quite filling)

Ingredients:

- 50gr skyr/low fat greek yoghurt ~ 25kcal

- 40gr oat flour (can also use normal flour, little bit lower kcal but has no fibre!) ~ 148 kcal

- 8 gr baking powder ~ 7 kcal

- 1 egg (50 gr) ~ 78 kcal

- 80 gr grated carrots ~ 33 kcal

- 10-25ml water (until cake batter like consistency) ~ 0 kcal

- sweetener of choice

- pumpkin spices (cinnamon, ginger, nutmeg, cloves)

Topping:

- 20gr skyr/low fat greek yoghurt ~ 10 kcal

- vanilla extract

- sweetener of choice

(- pouring a little (soy) milk (~5 kcal) over it makes it even juicier and yummier!!)

Rutger ten Broeke

Lucien Clergue (French, 1934 - 2014)