Nescio, sed fieri sentio - et excrucior

What is that? What is this? Our vampire bond, I think.

And what if you were DEPRESSED and bored out of your mind for THREE CENTURIES STRAIGHT, but then your ex's HUSBAND and DAUGHTER came to town, and his husband is HOT, and you FALL IN LOVE, but his daughter is a BURDEN, and you want her GONE, and your coven conspired to have her KILLED, and you just wanted her GONE not necessarily KILLED but you won't complain, and now there's TENSION, but you and him still get MARRIED, and he CHEATS on you with everything with two legs and a cock, so you BRAINWASH him, and flash-forward 52 years later, and after 514 years of existence you FINALLY have some stability and safety in your life, but then your husband decides to invite home THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE (whom you ALSO had to brainwash), and now you're STRESSED, and they GANG UP against you, and everything is REVEALED, and it's a huge MESS, and your husband wants a DIVORCE, and the love of your life is OLD and SICK and DYING, so you have to MAKE HIM IMMORTAL, and then you just have a BREAKDOWN and have to DISAPPEAR, and your husband runs back to your toxic common ex, and you're more ALONE than ever before, and then you and the love of your life start STALKING each other AGAIN, and he wants to interview yours and your ex husband's ex who is also now a ROCKSTAR, THEN WHAT

At that point in their relationship, Lestat, someone that needs constant attention and love felt loved by Louis, felt that he was thoughtful and dedicated.

Showing that Louis probably had a lot of cute and romantic moments with Lestat but just didn’t mention them because he’s still hurt and denying.

I have seen people say that in Loustat’s relationship it feels like Louis has little to no affection for Lestat but that one line right there proofs that wrong since Lestat wouldn’t just say that unless he really felt the love and the dedication from Louis.

And it probably adds on even more why he feels so upset during Louis’s colder years and why he can’t just leave, he knows what it’s like to be loved by Louis and he can’t let that go now, not ever!

Lestat knows their relationship isn’t perfect (what relationship is) but Louis made it worth it with the love that he showed Lestat.

Exactly this! I *cringe* when I see that notion floating around that Louis doesn’t love Lestat or Louis doesn’t ever give him anything emotionally. Like, huh?!?! He absolutely does.

I mean….

In Episode 1, Louis and Lestat are literally dating for months. They’re having dinners together, shopping together for clothes and the townhouse, sitting and talking for hours on their bench, going to operas in which Louis is being vulnerable in front of Lestat and sharing private things with him i.e. Lestat saying “You were near weeping when the curtain fell. Why hide that from your family?” We hear Louis say tender sentiments like “It was a cold winter that year and Lestat was my coal fire.” We see Louis telling Grace that Lestat is different and inviting him to dinner with his family, and the evening culminates in the love scene to end all love scenes 46 years in the making, and Louis confirms Lestat awakened an intimacy in him that he’d never experienced before.

In Episode 2, we get the cute domestic shit like Louis being the pampered king that he is and Lestat being the lovestruck, whipped husband while Louis just knowingly smiles at him. Like, this is a marriage, y’all. These two are obsessed with each other.

In Episode 3, we get Louis being openly flirty with Lestat and more smiles that say way more than words ever could about how Louis feels. He adores Lestat.

“Try something for me, mon cher.”

In Episode 4, Louis and Lestat hit their peak in terms of sickening romance and love and perhaps the cutest, sweetest, most precious moments of the entire season.

“Shh…shh…shh…shh…shh…”

“Don’t you shush me.”

“I missed you.”

“You missed me?”

*warm affectionate chuckles*

*muffled whispers*

“I hated sleeping without you.”

*soft kissing noises*

This sickening (yet telling) shit of them dancing like it’s just regular stuff they do every night. Their dance and those adoring smiles at each other.

Louis looking at Lestat like he hung the moon with that precious smile. Louis teasing him. “I prefer you like that.”

Like, THIS WAS NORMAL FOR THEM.

And even when shit hits the fan, you still have very telling moments of Louis’ feelings based on the fact he did not want to leave Lestat either, the fact Lestat’s love song to him is what finally got his attention, the fact he confesses to Claudia he can’t fully give his heart to Lestat because he’d “lose himself” in Lestat, the fact Louis confesses he wants Lestat all to himself with that “cascade of feelings”, the fact Louis cannot bring himself to burn Lestat like trash, the fact Louis is screaming in agony when it hits him that Lestat is gone….

I just—