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We’re Done

yep, I’ll leave it at that for now

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I decided to give it some time before I posted about me an Clutch.  I wanted to see how things would work out between us with me just going with the flow and not thinking too much into it.  One of my blog fam suggested that.  Well…its a good thing I did, because giving myself some blog space prevented me from making decisions based off of prior posts.  Now that I come back and look at the dates…

I haven’t had someone genuinely care about me in a long time.  A part of me wants to run away from this because its not the norm for me.  I’m somewhat uncomfortable.  I’m not used to being thought about so much or wanted so much. Clutch is all about me.  He has his own goals and stuff but we spend a lot of time together. I feel fine when we are together; I don’t think twice about this.  But when…

This is when everything took a turn for the…strange.  I swear I cannot make this up.  Guys…I faked it SO hard…that I ended up enjoying myself =/

Yeah…we got along so well that we were able to finally hash EVERYTHING out.  It was so deep…I can’t possibly go into all of the details, and I’m sure you wouldn’t want to hear them anyway.  But in short, we both have some issues with being…

I missed you guys :)

I feel like everyone has been waiting on me to drop this huge bomb of a post about how horrible my trip with Clutch was.  The buildup of incidents with him was so heavy that I was feeling nothing but dread.  The night before we went to the airport, we had another fallout.  This time is was big and over THE STUPIDEST situation:

While laying in bed, I said to him (in what I…

we just made it to DC…this isn’t going to be good…

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I didn’t try to tell him…but he kept asking me if everything was okay. So I said it nicely.  I really didn’t want to  say anything today of all days, but he is so pushy and I felt like I had no choice. We ended up arguing for 30 minutes about it (which he says was a discussion, not an argument…but I totally disagree).  He isn’t upset anymore and I’m seeing him later this evening but I’m NOT…

I don’t want to be in a relationship with Clutch.  I wan’t to date him, but not be with him… not just yet.  We moved way too soon and I think everyone is aware of that.  I’m happy that we feel this great connection and chemistry, but I feel like we need(ed) time to let that grow more.  Everything that I liked about him is taking a backseat to the obligations and expectations that having a…

I’ve known about this for a while but haven’t said anything about it because so much other stuff has been happening this past week.  Clutch and I are going to DC with his family to watch his sister play her final basketball game.  I’m super excited because I’ll get to meet his family (who he has told me so much about) and he will be meeting my dad and stepmom also.  I don’t know what the trip…

EVERYTHING that could have possibly happened to me, happened to me last Sunday LOL – read these blogs if you don’t know what I’m talking about: Clutch comes to my job, Superman misses me – both happened on Sunday.

So to add to my eventful Sunday, I received a message from Drake (my petty ex).  It was actually a screenshot of his friend’s recent Facebook post.  The friend was making a reference to…

Right after the dramatic weekend with Clutch, Superman saw me from a distance at work and sent me a text.

Superman: R u ok

Me: Yeah! whats up?

Superman: U just don’t seem like your usual self but now that I know you are okay, I feel a lot better.

Me: I’m just a little stressed.

Superman: Ok well if you need someone to talk to, let me know

I miss him sometimes…we got along PERFECTLY.  He is…

So this post is the long overdue followup post to Clutch vs. Me.  The tension on my way to his house was so thick; he could read my attitude through our text messages.  When I pulled into his driveway, I took a moment to rest and ended up dozing off.  I woke up to him opening my car door.

Clutch: “Were you sleeping?!”

Me: “Yeah.”

Clutch: “Well come inside. Are you hungry?”

Me: “Yeah, I am.”

Clutc…

Guess who is on his way to my job, just to hug me because he misses me? lol :)

No, this does not mean that the weekend went well. But I’ll update you on that later tonight. Right now I’m on lunch, waiting for what seems like forever for my meal.  Heck, are they giving birth to a chicken back there,  just for my chicken sandwich?! Lord…

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I read a blog post Friday about the struggle that we women sometimes have with seeing our own worth – Precious In His Sight.  With all of the heartache and rejection that we experience over a lifetime, its hard to view our reflection as anything even closeto appealing.  We look in the mirror and all of the emotional or physical abuse we’ve experienced over a lifetime is staring back at us. Simply…

In 10 minutes I’ll be headed to Clutch’s house.  I’m supposed to be excited because we are spending the weekend there without his parents (with surprises that he’s prepares) but I’m not so much.  We haven’t been on the “same page” today…or for a few days actually. Which isn’t great considering that we have really only known each other for about that long.

I feel like I’m such a complainer, and…

Guess Who Texted Me Today

Remember the Southern Gentleman?  If you don’t, then Read here and here.  You guys, this conversation was weird, but not surprising.  I feel like this text conversation validated everything that I said about him wanting A WOMAN more than wanting THIS WOMAN.  He was never into ME, just into the idea of being WITH me.

The Southern Gentleman: Hey u

Me: How goes it?!

The Southern Gentleman: U been…