My words are all I have

I wish I could cut and throw every part of my body I feel disgusted with

I wish I could shape myself so that I can dare to look in the mirror again

But I'm scared

I just wish to vanish from everyone's memories

It scares me but gives me peace that maybe they'll be happier without me maybe they'll be better off without me and just maybe they find someone good for them

I don't have a single heart but the leftover pieces of it and I

Thriving in this dark world is brave

Accepting the ugly parts of us is progress, alas a great man once said

True sorrow and true beauty are both connected

Will you ever know how much I love you?

Will you ever meet me before its too late for me to live?

You are still those little babies you were when we got you home

I'm still holding your memories in my soul

I'm still begging for you to forgive me

And I'll still beg for your forgiveness till my last breath

Nope that's a lie ik what I'm feeling I just don't have the words to put them in order

Someone who gets me just like that

The tears which I always held back refused to be held in,

The tears I desperately locked just kept flowing