Life Is Growth.

brain: just because

Me: okay I'm never doing that again

So thankful to have been able to spend these past couple of days with my beautiful family! Happy thanksgiving, y'all! Enjoy the love around you and cherish who and what you have 🦃

beautiful beautiful place 🌞 (at Nassau Harbour)

Me and my birthday twin on formal night! Love you Aunt Toshia! #familycruise

Celebrating my favorite girl tonight!! 🎈🎉 #mygirl #21

I have a lot of things to say when it comes to you, but never to you. There's a lot that crosses my mind it I just never mention it because, What can you do? Nothing. I have a lot of Latino and mixed kids in my class and sometimes my heart aches because a couple years ago, I was sure that was gonna be us. Those kids would've been ours. We would've been married and happy and adopting children and being amazing parents. But we're not. Anytime that we get into each other's space, we get into each other's heart and someone ends up broken. Usually me, but sometimes you, I'll give you the benefit of the doubt. It breaks my heart to think of the plans I had in my head for us, things that will never come to pass. Kids that will never exist. A marriage that will never be. Memories that will never be made. I will travel the world without you, most likely with someone else. You will live and have lived with someone who isn't me and will continue your life that way. Our bodies will never touch again. We will never be intimate again. We don't have a future. I cry realizing that I put so much hope into something that shattered. It shatters me because I know you've probably had these same thoughts before, these same realizations. How do I believe I can have a future with anyone else when what I once wholeheartedly believed was my destiny failed?