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i’ve never been more confused and depressed about life before

just ate an absolutely unimaginable amount of pasta in one go

if i ever get into artist alley i swear the first thing ill make is a kaeya art book

i think i love kaeya so much because i just adore characters that try so hard to appear unfazed, simple and strong when, in reality, they’re so complicated and have so many emotions and stuff to work through… like the idea of kaeya being known to many as easy going and sociable when his younger (and arguably more real) self was much more quiet and timid, hiding behind his more outspoken and jolly brother ;-; that’s also why i love kaebedo, i think albedo’s impartial-ness would somehow be comforting to kaeya allowing him to show more of his real, not so perfect parts of himself without any worry that it will change the perception people hold of him. kaeya so desperately clinging onto this persona and this life and no one having any idea how much of a toll it takes on him.. no one knowing who he truly is, his past etc it’s just so sad when you think about how much he has to bury deep down inside his heart. i really love thinking about how lovely it would be if albedo, who shares some sort of distant connection to him, is the one to somehow accidentally break through all those walls of protection and find out who the calvary captain truly is, how sensitive and emotional kaeya can be 😭 just the idea of kaeya crying in albedos arm GAAAHHHHHH

i miss fatui scaramouche 😔