the thing is that I was trying to have a minor emotional breakdown about my absolutely ossified creative capabilities and now I have to field my car getting hate mail and shit instead. personal crisis delayed until we see how this plays out, curiosity is more important. yet another beautiful evening on tumblr dot com.
um but in seriousness though. so much of online culture from people who consider themselves writers, either as hobbyists or professionally, boils down to kvetching about how hard writing is and like. okay I get it. but how much are we joking. because a lot of people share the It's So Hard posts but are evidently also writing. so like what's the actual level of difficulty that's average because it feels legitimately impossible for me. which as I type it sounds unbearably self-centered. yeah man it's definitely harder for me than anybody else, no one else struggles so mightily. please.
and trust me, I do know the actual answer is that the only way to do it is to do it. I all I really need to do is nut up and have literally any discipline at all and power through. but why does that feel so impossible.
