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been trying to color this for so long but was never happy with it … i think ill try again someday

kevin: [one second away from crying]

jean: [nodding seriously] absolutely yeah

it’s tragedy because now we have context. because we know who patroclus thinks achilles is. it’s tragic because patroclus knows the achilles who juggled figs and raced in lakes and adored patroclus’ mother’s lyre. the achilles patroclus knows would never commit such atrocities. the achilles patroclus knows wouldn’t torture somebody in such a way. that’s not his achilles. not anymore

aaron seeing all andrew's nervous tics before he takes the first pill. aaron seeing how scared andrew is.

So when people say things like Andrew bottoming (something Nora said he one day does in the ec) don't make sense, or just overall say things that imply Andrew is exactly like how we see him for the rest of his life, it kills me. Because we saw him at one of the worst points in his life, but more importantly we saw him get given the tools and the people to heal. So yes, he's always gonna be rude as fuck and generally off putting, but he's gonna grow and transform in ways we couldn't imagine. He'll always have trauma, and his outlook will always be influenced by it, but he was a teenager in those books, and he has an entire life to live and heal with Neil and Bee and yes, Aaron.

For plot reasons none of this happened, but logically speaking being burnt so closely to your eye would damage the capillaries and the general sight + the other eye wouldn't be safe either because of the cuts, they got pretty close to it more than once so it should have some kind of damage.

This came up to me while i was thinking about Andrew discovering Neil's blind spot and using it so he can gaze at him for entire minutes until Neil finally turns around and catches him. (he calls this "observing" and "checking he's not hurt", but everyone knows he's just lovingly staring at Neil) (("You're staring" "No I'm not." "You were!" "Shut up, Josten."))

Neil at first doesn't even notice it, he knows that Andrew is always standing close to him, whether or not it's in his blind spot, so he doesn't bother turning to check, until one day someone sits on Neil's side before Andrew can and the midget almost breaks hell loose for his place. Neil calls himself stupid for not catching it earlier and the foxes are not even surprised it took him months to become aware of what was happening mere inches from him.

Now imagine that but pro exy players andreil on opposing teams 😭😭

Maybe everyone thinks they hate each other or something and then Neil gets injured and Andrew literally abandons the goal to carry him off the field. Neil doesn't fight it either; just tucks himself closer and holds on and everyone around is just ?????????hate???didn't they hate?? eachother???

It would be SO cute and SO hilarious

(might write something about this 👀)

(in case you don't know which video)

Imagine a little 7 year old, chubby cheeks, missing tooth, two poofs of hair sticking out struggling to get the last strap of her glove fastened so Andrew comes over to help her out. As a thank you she picks a little flower and hands it to him. Andrew keeps that flower tucked behind his ear the rest of the day.

Or a bunch of 10 year olds decided that his black arm bands are boring so they conspire to get him a new pair that they all draw on themselves so he has something pretty to wear. Every time Andrew looks down at his arms he's reminded of their care and kindness.

Or middle school aged girls who ruthlessly go to bat for him whenever some random parent tries to use Andrew's sorted past as an excuse why he shouldn't be allowed to coach children.

Or Andrew being clued into all the hot gossip the team spills because they trust and value his opinions.

A group of girls who give no mercy and are hell on the exy court because they have the best mentor. Not only do they have excellent skills but they are by far the most coherent team.