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Andrew sets a mental timer every time Neil walks out of the room. If it hits 3 hours, he has to either call, track him, or throw a knife at someone just to stabilize

The best thing about Neil’s interactions with Ichirou is that they show he has the ability to choose his words carefully and show respect/submission when necessary for his own safety… and he just chose not to do that before. His pride is a pricey queen that will only bow to a certain caliber of threat. He needs to be confronted by a high enough level of murderous mob member before he finally unlocks the ability to use his filter. He has it in his lil duffle bag, but he stores it in there for safe keeping unless shit is really going down.

the first time I’ve read Neil saying “you gave me a key and called it home”, my world shifted. I thought omg he just confessed. Did he rlly confess now??. I thought it was the most romantic thing he had ever said. So honest, so vulnerable. When I think about love like between lovers, there’s always a time in which two people are first acquaintances, then friends, then they’re fond of themselves, then they like each other, then they fall in love. At that stage, you can start to love someone and include them in your life, that’s when you’re not lovers anymore, but family. As someone who holds family in high regard, when I first read both Andrew’s and Neil’s stories, I thought they need someone, they need a family. Who in this world doesn’t need a family? Everybody needs somebody, even the devil needs a friend. So to read such big words, I don’t know, it was legendary. I want to talk first about the big act of love Andrew did at the end of the first book, he gave him protection, but not just that, he gave him a key, and he called it home. I remember in the first pages, Neil used to sleep in abandoned houses and sometimes his old coach used to fake forget the gym open so he could sleep there. You understand what I am saying? Andrew looked trough him, he didn’t see a liar, a lonely boy, a frightened one at that, a runaway, someone with an attitude problem. He saw Neil and for a moment he was looking into a mirror. He loved him to the point of giving him what he didn’t even had in the first place: a home. To love someone to the point of creation.

jean finds out about jeremy's family withholding his social security card and birth certificate and being like okay, I have a guy give me a second. and he calls neil up and says you can't kill another abuser but can you do the next best thing. and neil doesn't even know the whole story but he gets jeremy new papers no hesitation because ruining an abuser's day is his favorite hobby