Neil Josten's Middle Finger

We all do, buddy. We all do

even when Andrew thought Neil was a threat to Kevin and didnt like him whatsoever, he Liked Neil. why tf else would he buy him clothes to that first trip to Columbia? he’s so gay he couldnt help himself from putting neil in a tight shirt, trust issues aside

street road

I love Matt so much. He saw Neil never talking about it going after girls and immediately thought he was gay. However he sees Andrew doing the same thing but just thinks he’s a freak of nature or something.

Thinking about the first Thursday of the Trojan's summer practice from Rhemann's pov. Like, he spent the whole afternoon having to make near constant corrections to Jean's playing, and he had to be wondering with the hell Coach Moriyama had been teaching those kids. But then, Jean offered his racquet without question, in front of everyone, as if being hit with it was an acceptable and expected thing. Like, what the fuck? And then there was Grayson

“No one could see how much blood the black padding absorbed, but all the Ravens could smell it.” is almost as bad of a visual as Neil telling us his mom’s skin sounded like velcro being peeled off the car seat was.

aaron minyard who has a complicated handshake with edens bouncer. aaron minyard who eats mint chocolate chip ice cream. aaron minyard who was faster then the fastest exy player in the league. aaron minyard who was so scared of being alone, of letting go of the only tangible love hes ever recieved (andrew) no matter how epically fucked it was. aaron minyard who will claw his way to the top using only his teeth because fuck you if you thought he couldnt. aaron minyard who will never open up to others about his former addiction because deep down he knows that no matter what he accomplishes in life he'll only ever be seen as the drug addict from college, the abused kid, the guy in ur class on murder trial. aaron minyard who still grieves his abusive mother. aaron minyard who will go to hell and back for the people he loves no matter what they do to him. aaron minyard who feels so much that its actually gutting. aaron minyard.

really sad that neil's childhood was so miserable bcus for a wondrous moment i was thinking about fat baby neil getting dressed like a pumpkin and then i had to be like "there's literally no way this happened". and u know who else is miserable about this fact? nicky hemmick...