Satoru's version

the feminine urge to become fluent in every language on earth so I can read literature in poetry in their native tongues to get the full effect

the clear cut parallels between rin, nezha, and kitay and the trifecta never fail to make me sob. like speer and mugen, the second poppy war and the third poppy war. riga loving and betraying daji, nezha loving and betraying rin. the friendship between jiang and daji, the friendship between rin and kitay. both groups leaving only one of them to rule. their shared complicated love and loyalty and hurt between each other. jiang and rins final moments of clarity. they followed right into their predecessors footsteps and didn’t even know it. both groups were supposed to be unstoppable forces but ended up being torn apart by each other.

when hozier said "the only heaven i'll be sent to is when i'm alone with you" and when halsey said "i know i've only felt religion when i've lied with you" and when sappho said "in the crooks of your body i find my religion" and then when rf kuang said "she's the only divine thing he ever believed in"

STOP making me think about rinezha. i can't do it anymore. enemies to enemies slow burn. enemies to begrudging allies to friends to *almost* lovers. then betrayal, and then they're just enemies who used to be in love. and they both *know* that they were in love, and maybe they are still in love, but they stand on opposite sides of a war because they've both made their decisions and cannot come back from them. there can never be reconciliation for the things they've done to each other, but god, they're still in love. i am literally eating drywall over them

babygirl is a beautiful name for a bloody traumatized man

Been letting go of people without necessarily villainizing them. I don’t need to tell myself “they’re a bad person” “don’t know how to handle my emotions” “have xyz negative traits” “a total asshole without any redeeming qualities” to be able to arrive at the conclusion that maybe that certain person would not be a very healthy addition to my life. Idk growing up and maturing has come w seeing other people not though the lens of “u bad me good,” but more so through “we’re all imperfect in our own ways, and I can still acknowledge the good in you even as I decide it’s best to part ways.” People will always be tricky to navigate, it’s just a matter of asking yourself “do I have the capacity or time for this? Is this worth it?” and the answer can still be no even if the person you’re removing from your life isn’t an evil caricature of who they actually are

Btw this doesn’t apply to someone who’s like way out of line and really is a total asshole. But there surprisingly is a large volume of situations where it’s just someone being imperfect, and we can acknowledge that/reassess how they fit in our life without painting them as satan incarnate

1D CANT AFFORD THEIR BILLS SO THEY SELL HARRY STYLES TO YOU SJSJSJSJS

when you see your little kitty walking toward you at a leisurely pace and say "hi baby!" bc you're excited to see her and she starts trotting a little bit faster 'cause she's excited to see you too. that's what life is all about i think

I like how rin’s reference point for pretty much everything related to the house of yin is just nezha. she sees jinzha and muzha for the first time at the summer parade and thinks ‘oh they’re just hot, older versions of nezha’ without knowing or caring that jinzha’s the heir to the most powerful province in the empire. Jinzha would be outraged if he knew. She’s face to face with Vaisra,  the Dragon Warlord and richest (and arguably most powerful) man in the country, for the first time and immediately thinks that she can’t look at him and not see Nezha, who to everyone is the ‘irrelevant’ yin son. Even when she sees Yin Riga, the Dragon Emperor himself and strongest shaman alive, Rin just thinks that he looks like Nezha’s corpse. she literally sees some of the most powerful men in the country for the first time and is like oh, another knock off nezha 

The Poppy War series is absolutely NOT a romance series but 'She’s the only divine thing he’s ever believed in. The only creature in this vast, cruel land who could kill him. And sometimes, in his loveliest dreams, he imagines she does.'