Louis de Pointe du Lac

Show me how to lie, you're getting better all the time

And no one even knew it was really only you

Nice work you did, you're gonna go far, kid

Hit 'em right between the eyes

And if you can't get what you want, well, it's all because of me

My dear, there are secrets here

If only I could break the chain of disappointments weighing me down

I won't be afraid

It's the fear, and not the ghost, that leaves me haunted

You're an anchor for all the heaviest regrets inside of you

I heard you tellin' lies

I know we're the crooked kind

It ain't a talk of "if," just one of "when" and "how"

So, collect your scars and wear 'em well

They're never truly gone

I carry their blood too

I'm far from where I wanna be

I get lost in my delusional reality

It's kinda hard to think about your own mortality

And I'm hoping for a never ending odyssey

Just give me something good

I've made up my mind over and over

I can't be everything you want me to be

But it's all gone

It's all the same sound and my ears are burning

Never to be moved by the words of a liar

The dark doesn't frighten me

I chose to close my eyes

The night doesn't frighten me

I chose to let it thrive

Oh, my precious child, how lucky you are

I got a friend that's losing sleep

I never needed a reason for keeping secrets from myself

I'll wreck this if I have to

Tell me what good would that do

I'd be so good to you

And I don't know how this is wrong

You were a friend of mine

They don't know you like I do

I can never go back home again

Don't you ever tell me I'm not loving you best

And I just need a minute, I just need a breath

It's very hard to drink to my continued success

It's getting better in the worst way

I like to push it and push it until my luck is over

Please just follow me

I wonder how we used to ever go so long without it

I am right beside you

I thought you wanted me

I've been here so very long

I never took you for a trick but sometimes I don't know what you want

I could take it if you need to take this out on someone

I don't know how it got this way

But these problems aside, I think I taught you well

We're here to stay

But you're a king and I'm a lionheart

We're still the same

I'll be here to hold your hand

You won't be alone, we're unstoppable

Don't be ‘fraid to show what we're going for

Oh, all you need to know is that we're holding on

Even if we fall, we will rise up

No, we're not gonna stop until we reach it

We all have our burdens, yeah, but we just keep on fighting and we never look back

I know I was born for this

They just don't get it, I think they forget I'm not done 'til I'm on top

I believe we can write our story

We come from different places, but have the same name

We are the broken ones who chose to spark a flame

I've struggled for years and through all the tears I've faced the doubts I hide

I never gave into my fears deep within 'cause I heard my voice inside

The words pierce through as they're meant to and Lestat feels a hot spike of pain lance through him. "Yes," he says softly, something caught between heartbreak and simmering anger, "you've made that very clear."

"That's not..." Louis stops himself. Eyes closed. Deep breath. The doubt is creeping in like a cold wind through the window panes and the cracks in the doorway. But he remembers the rejection that Lestat denies. He does remember it.

Louis could relitigate all of it. Bring forth his evidence this time. Give his fucking testimony.

But he has already done that, of course, and the thought of it is exhausting. The thought of saying any of it to Lestat's face is exhausting. It takes so much energy to believe himself before Lestat, and usually he gives in. Lestat's version is probably more accurate than his own. His memories are like a decaying fortress that he keeps trying to rebuild to protect himself, only for it to fall again and again.

Pointless. The pointlessness makes him laugh--more an exhalation of breath, like being hit in the stomach. "You think it matters to me? If you need me? I don't need you to need me."

The words are cruel, he can hear the cruelty in his voice and he holds onto it briefly. Cruelty is the only defense that ever worked, even though it hurts him, too.

we're no good for each other.

it was never going to work.

at least we tried this thing out.

your expectations are far beyond anything i can achieve.

i'll never be the person you need me to be.

you deserve better than me.

i can't be the person you want.

we gave this relationship a chance.

you go your way, and i'll go mine.

we gave it a good try.

you should be with someone who cares about you.

i'm just going to disappoint you over and over.

you can't get stuck with me.

i'm not giving up on this relationship.

are you telling me we're over?

is this your way of breaking up with me?

we're not compatible.

you belong somewhere else.

this relationship will just limit you.

you should be out with someone who appreciates you the way i can't.

listen. you're a great person.

the love i have for you will never be enough.

i can't turn myself into someone i'm not.

you're giving up on us?

that just proves our incompatibility.

i think we should start seeing other people.

you can't come with me.

this is the end of the road for us.

i'm done pretending like this relationship is going to work.

you want me to just close my eyes and ignore our problems?

this thing between us... it's not working.

i think you should be with them instead.

they would be a better match for you.

i wish i was the one for you.

maybe in another life, we'd be something.

this is not the time or place for a relationship.

you need to focus on yourself, not me.

if we had more time, maybe we'd be something.

there's nothing wrong with you. it's all me.

i hate saying "it's not you, it's me," but it's true.

come back to me in five years and we'll try this again.

go find your happy ending.

i'm not your knight in shining armor after all.

as much as i want to stay, i can't.

you're going to be happy one day.

your happy ending doesn't start with me.

i told you to get out of here.

i said i don't want to see you again.

how long are we going to keep lying to ourselves?

you have to stop pretending i'm good for you.

we just go our separate ways. it's that easy.

i want to make this work. i really do.

don't lie to yourself about me.

you've known my faults from day one.

Could be romantic, playfull anything you want.

A bunch of people are like "OH LOOK AT HIM GLOATING RIGHT BEFORE EVERYTHING GOES WRONG"

and i'm like where? where is the gloating?

how do you see this nuanced performance by assad and see gloating??????

There's an almost smile I GUESS? but. to me, this is obviously difficult for him to say (in fact he basically SAYS THAT a second earlier) because 1) while he's sure that louis loves him, louis spent a long time not talking about lestat at all and then opened up to daniel 50 years earlier and now just rehashed his whole relationship and 2) he does care about lestat you weirdos and he has mixed feelings about hurting him. he's also been hurt by lestat himself, so it's just. complicated. he's not a cackling villain.

ALSO 3) he is communicating to louis how much it would hurt to LOSE HIM. DO YOU NOT SEE THAT HURT AT THE END? you think he doesn't know how fragile things are between him and louis at this point? he does.