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The whole self love thing is good and all but some people can’t fathom being loved. They can’t imagine there being anything good about them. So they can’t simply just stop doing unhealthy things, there’s a process.

Before self love you have to invoke self tolerance and self neutrality.

the hardest part about bouncing back from a depressive episode is cleaning up the mess you’ve made of your life like you can’t exactly say “sorry for ignoring you and your messages for a week, i was too busy suffering from crippling loneliness hope we’re still ok lol” right

I’m reblogging this just to say if anyone I know ever drops all contact with me for a week because they’re having a depressive episode and then comes back to try and re-establish connection afterward, I will understand.

Reblogging this for all the above and to ask the same in return. Depression is never an easy thing to live with since it can hit without notice and leave someone incapable of doing anything for sometimes a long, long time. This I know from first hand experience. So if I do disappear, know that this is probably the reason why.

He moaned happily and laid happily against him. “Mmm,” he started dozing.

Slash watched Colton curiously as he continued to caress his back. He knew he felt a definite warmth in his core when it came to the human. Definitely he was going to see if he could connect to their computers to learn more about his adoptive world and the things Colton had mentioned.

Slash just laid there, holding Colton close as he watched the human sleep. He was still having a hard time adjusting to the fact that he was being treated as an equal and not a simple tool to be ordered around or punished if he failed. He did have to worry what would happen if he suddenly found himself back in his own world, what would Wily do to him for being gone so long? Inwardly shuddering at the images that played through his neural network he put all of his focus on Colton, soaking up the warmth of the day, the fact that he was cared about and had Pokemon of his own to care for and how happy this world made him.

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He moaned happily and laid happily against him. “Mmm,” he started dozing.

Slash watched Colton curiously as he continued to caress his back. He knew he felt a definite warmth in his core when it came to the human. Definitely he was going to see if he could connect to their computers to learn more about his adoptive world and the things Colton had mentioned.

Slash just laid there, holding Colton close as he watched the human sleep. He was still having a hard time adjusting to the fact that he was being treated as an equal and not a simple tool to be ordered around or punished if he failed. He did have to worry what would happen if he suddenly found himself back in his own world, what would Wily do to him for being gone so long? Inwardly shuddering at the images that played through his neural network he put all of his focus on Colton, soaking up the warmth of the day, the fact that he was cared about and had Pokemon of his own to care for and how happy this world made him.

He moaned happily and laid happily against him. “Mmm,” he started dozing.

Slash watched Colton curiously as he continued to caress his back. He knew he felt a definite warmth in his core when it came to the human. Definitely he was going to see if he could connect to their computers to learn more about his adoptive world and the things Colton had mentioned.

Nodding again, Slash let his hand roam all over Colton’s back, and even lower, not realizing it might not be such a good thing. At the question he shook his head. “I haven’t been here that long, remember? I don’t know if your technology is compatible with mine.” Though, it would save time learning things since he could just download it. That was something he might want to try and do as soon as he could.

Slash nodded, relaxing even more. “Ok, as soon as I can I’ll try. I know probably history, law and stuff on Pokemon I should see about getting, but anything else?” Assuming he was doing ok he continued to caress Colton’s back, a faint smile starting to form.

Even though it was just a tease, Slash filed that away as something important to try and download. He kissed back, just not as hard as Colton was, not wanting to hurt him on accident. He did as requested, letting his hands roam wherever they wished, not paying that much attention to what he was doing which might, or might not, be a good thing.

Nodding again, Slash let his hand roam all over Colton’s back, and even lower, not realizing it might not be such a good thing. At the question he shook his head. “I haven’t been here that long, remember? I don’t know if your technology is compatible with mine.” Though, it would save time learning things since he could just download it. That was something he might want to try and do as soon as he could.

Slash nodded, relaxing even more. “Ok, as soon as I can I’ll try. I know probably history, law and stuff on Pokemon I should see about getting, but anything else?” Assuming he was doing ok he continued to caress Colton’s back, a faint smile starting to form.

Nodding again, Slash let his hand roam all over Colton’s back, and even lower, not realizing it might not be such a good thing. At the question he shook his head. “I haven’t been here that long, remember? I don’t know if your technology is compatible with mine.” Though, it would save time learning things since he could just download it. That was something he might want to try and do as soon as he could.

Taking a shuddering sigh, Slash tried to vary what he knew Colton had done to him. He kissed him back, letting his hand trail along the human’s side. He was wary, ready to back off if he thought he was doing wrong.

Slash nodded, his fears starting to ease some as he repeated the motion. If it made Colton happy then he would do it for as long as he wanted.

Taking a shuddering sigh, Slash tried to vary what he knew Colton had done to him. He kissed him back, letting his hand trail along the human’s side. He was wary, ready to back off if he thought he was doing wrong.

Slash smiled. “You’re not,” he said, “I just don’t know what I’m doing.” He was afraid of doing something wrong and losing the happiness he had found. He knew there were words he was supposed to say but was too unsure if he should utter them. He knew what he felt, even if he was still learning about what it all meant.

He had no idea what more to try and it showed as he frowned slightly, his gaze shifting from happy to worried. He was sorely inexperienced in all of this and he knew it. He knew that Colton was the more dominant of the two and he could only take his cues from him. “I-I don’t know,” he said softly, biting his lip, almost piercing it with his small fangs, “I don’t know what else to do . . . “

“Then I’m your partner, not your owner okay?” he whispered and lifted their hands to kiss the robots fingers. “I know it’ll take time, but let’s continue this at a slow pace, i don’t want you overloading on me.”

Slowly breaking the kiss, he smiled warmly. “You seemed to enjoy that,” he commented and trailed a finger along his jaw.

“I do,” Slash said, “it makes me feel warm and happy inside.” Not that being with Colton or thinking of the human didn’t make him feel warm and happy inside, but more so when they kissed.